Wow,

I found your post "I cannot focus on anything long enough" when googling "cannot focus" because I have something important that I need to get done and can't focus on it.

I found your words so powerful and emotional and I just feel so much for you. I do not feel depressed but can very much relate to your decreased self-esteem as a result of not accomplishing your dreams. I, like yourself, still have my dreams too, thank the gods for that. I am convinced that achieving our dreams is essential to our happiness and is a main reason for our lives. You must make your dreams happen! You were happy when you had your own natural food store because you were living your dream!

I would like to offer my suggestions in the hopes that they will help you. I think it is critical to stay inspired and some books that I have read have been so inspirational to me; they might inspire you too. You are probably familiar with these authors based on your lifestyle and the fact that you are on this website, but maybe you have not read these yet. Also, I find that if I keep reading the things that inspire me a little bit every day, it helps keep me motivated.

1. Life After Death by Deepak Chopra - this might seem off-topic but is has been absolutely incredible for changing my view of life and myself. Its not an easy read, might want to go through it a couple of times.

2. The Millionaire Maker & Cash Machine for Life by Loral Langemeier - these books made it so real to me that I can be successful and make money anytime, anywhere.

The dietary changes I have found to be helpful for me are to get more protein and vitamin b12. I was raised vegetarian and cannot stand to eat meat, but the few times I have forced myself I felt better (more clear, energetic and alive) within hours. I fully believe that our bodies (unfortunately) need meat/egg protein at this stage in our evolution. If you cannot eat at least 1 serving of fish, meat or eggs per day, get as much tofu and other veg or dairy proteins as you can but at least for me, it is not the same. You might also consider a b12 sublingual supplement or even better, shots. (I am assuming you are vegetarian too but feel free to ignore this if that is incorrect)

Finally, drink some coffee when you need it. I know all the reasons it is bad for us but my take on it is if it can give you a temporary boost to help get you going and making progress on your goals (where you can get real satisfaction and elan vital) it is well worth the trade-off.

I hope one or more of these ideas will help. You have a lot to offer the world, I hope you will let it all out and feel great.