I'm sorry you're sad. During the 9 day fast I did last month I was sad the whole time. Remember, it's a mental game and that's all. Do plenty of reading about what you're going to do after the fast; what you're going to eat and imagine how much better and lighter you'll feel. You've done this many times before- for you it's no problem, What made you decide to go 15 days, eat raw, and then finish? I still don't know how long I'll go, it'll be a surprise- I'll just have to see how I feel. Stay strong girl and cheer up! :)