It takes courage, strength and brains - and no one gets out alive. This life is such a mystery, it sure helps to keep or acquire the single eye. Reading your blogs about your work and going in to "the depths," reminds me of the great healing that comes from spirit when spirit is the single focus. I encourage you to love yourself, find the beauty in that plant, the God in you, the life force...whatever you call it. Spirit loves back, love always comes around, love prevails. Even when we die, they all love us like crazy. Keep the faith, brother. Love to you!