- 30 Day Juice Fast Journey -- Day Twenty Eight by Dazzle
18 y
3,704 14 Messages Shown
Blog: ~Rising Above It All~
Today is Day 28 of my 30 day juice fast journey with two more days to go before I can eat. But then, I think I've forgotten how to chew. My experience in the past, is even though I consistently remind myself to be very careful coming off the fast, I find I have no desire to eat. Eating makes me feel less good, at least in comparison to juice fasting. Even when I eat fruits and veggies. My belly gurgles and burbles and even if I have forgotten to chew, my belly sure hasn't. And even though I've been dreaming of a cheeseburger, salivating over the idea of eating honey baked salmon, I really don't want to eat them. I don't want to eat anything.
With my husband deciding to do a modified juice fast, I have considered, seriously, of continuing to fast, giving myself permission to stop anytime I choose. I haven't made up my mind yet, but I have been weighing it out. I still want to lose more weight, I still want to flush my body of every toxin I've accumulated. I'm thinking that by prolonging my fast a bit longer, it will help me to stay away from smoking. Maybe this time, THIS TIME, I will succeed in not ever picking up another cig.
Yesterday I went to a wholefoods store called Sunsplash. It was very cool. All the veggies were organic. They had things like dandelion greens, of which I picked up a couple of bunches. They had all kinds of things from hummus, to tahini to raw cheeses and goat's milk which I bought a quart for my husband. I had a little sip myself (nothing dramatic or traumatic) and it reminded me of the taste of the raw cow's milk we had when I was a child growing up in the country of Indiana. Thick and creamy. But not for me.
Hey, Finally Faith, this is for you: I had my first shot of wheatgrass juice yesterday, as did my husband. We could feel the effects of that juice almost immediately. The lady who gave us the shot told us to hold our noses as we drank it down because the smell was strong and bitter. But both of us smelled it and found it smelled wonderful, like a freshly mowed lawn and it tasted pretty good too. Not bitter, but sweetish. I will definitely be going there again for more shots until I can get my own wheatgrass juicer. One shot and I'm hooked! Thank you for turning me on!
The thing about this store is everything is dramatically expensive. I was behind a lady who had purchased just a few things, maybe two small bags worth and the total came to $265!! I was shocked! I was thinking how in the hell am I going to live a raw lifestyle if these kinds of food are so expensive. But then, I have to remember that hospital stays, surgeries, chemo, nasty drugs, etc etc etc are far more taxing on my wallet and life than expensive organic and raw foods. Still. This explains why people who are poor can't get the kind of nutrition they need and end up eating things like white bread, Hamburger Helper, canned cream corn, hot dogs... Scary and very sad. I'm going to have to get my garden growing... that's just all there is to it. Bottom line.
Today was a good day, I feel so good, so light, so healthy! I don't want this feeling to end, which is why I am a little scared to stop juice fasting, why I want to continue. I've never done a fast longer than 30 days. I read someone's blog who fasted something like 145 days. Amazing. Definitely inspiring. I don't know if I could last that long, that's longer than 4 months. But I can see someone who is very ill doing something like that, under a professional's guidance. Forty five days I can see trying, maybe even 60 days. I don't know. I'm getting so close to the end, I find it interesting that I now don't want it to end. I have to think about this. Any input, ideas, suggestions from anyone please post... your thoughts may help me decide what to do.
Well, I stopped by Books-a-Million and bought some Grade 6 academic workbooks and three Hardy Boys books for Russell, the young man whom I am helping to get his GED. Remember he did not get passed the 5th grade. He will be coming to my house to spend a couple of nights with us each week while he is off work, to do his studies. I will be giving him homework to do and chapters to read when he is at home. I have not worked out a structured plan yet, because to be frank, I think I am in over my head. So I am going to play this by ear in the beginning. He's willing and I'm willing so that's a start.
Time for tea, tonight it's blueberry with ginger. I'm going to take a long detox soak and sip.
Talk with you all tomorrow.
May life embrace you with love,
~ Dazzle
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- Yes remember the big picture, Lady.. by kerminator
18 y
1,370
Every thing is not as it always appears... This I feel you know, but may need to rethink your priorities and set your goals high... The end will reflect your efforts...
Thought plus effort equals results.... Remember that you have a life after these thirty days, so plan on setting your life in order to be able to adjust and live with in your new life style... see Ya... Kermit
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- some of my thoughts by ausjulie
18 y
1,415
i know exactly how you feel in regards to wanting to keep going. when i first came off i had this feelign of loss and i really missed the fast. i have thought about startign again but i dont think i can front a veggie juice- yet. maybe if you are really considering extending it would be a good thing to try. you have mentioned it before so it sounds like it is on your mind a bit. i think your idea to continue but with permission to end whenever you want is a good idea. especially with snuzin on board. the only thing i can think of is that it may be harder to then eventually come off???? not sure???? anyway whatever you decide i am sure it will be the right decision.
i have been thinking a lot about your scholar. i think it is a fabulous thing for both of you. i remember something one of my teachers did for me at the start of a year and i loved it. she got us to write a letter to ourselves to open at the edn of our year. we wrote some of the things we were feeling about the year, fears, goals what we wanted to happen etc. also what we thoguht we needed to acheive in order to feel successful with our year. im sure some people hoped that they would finish the year and not drop out, others it was probably straigh A's. it was great to open the letter at teh end of the year but i remember writing the letter really made me think adn set a tone for the year. i thougth that maybe this would be a good thing for both of you to do before you start. you may want to share it with each other or not. or maybe if you do start a blog you could both write how you feel at the start -although this maybe scary for some people????? i wish you both the very best and if you ever get any ozzzztraaaliaan questions give me an oie!ha!
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- Re: some of my thoughts by Dazzle
18 y
1,363
Julie, I love your ideas about writing letters to oneself. I remember you said something about that on your summary blog. I thought that was very clever. I am going to try that myself. Thank you very much for suggesting that.
I am very interested in knowing about your life in Australia. Fortunately I have a couple few friends from the UK so I know some of the slang like 'chuffed.' LOL But yeah, tell me first, why did you come to America? I am assuming your husband is Australian too, because his ill father is in Australia, if I remember correctly. How is he by the way? What are some of the things you miss about Australia? What are some of the things you like about America? Some difference between the two? Maybe you could write a blog about the land down under.
Again, thank you for the clever letter ideas. Which reminds me, have you had to open and read any of the letters you've written to yourself yet?
Thanks bunches!!
*hugs*
~ Dazzle
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- Re: some of my thoughts by ausjulie
18 y
1,399
firstly its late at nite so apology for spelling and typing but i wanted to try to answer soem of your questions. hopefully you can translate my words into soemthing meaningful.
we came because of work. my husband works in the oil and gas industry but from alternative energy sources. tehy produce electricity using methane gas from landfills site. they are also in to wind energy now. a friend started a company in american and offered us a job. i had alsways wanted to live overseas (althogu i thoguh more spain or greece or france) adn my husbands job in australia had got to the point where he hated it and was lookin for another one anyway. so we jumped at the chance and moved over. it has not being easy from the point that his compnay is small and tryign to make a name for themselves. so he works too hard too many hours and is away far too much but i think he really loves it and it is rewardign being part of something that you help build from the ground up and see the successes. it isnt easy from the family point of view but it is a great oppurtunity. i think though it may come to a point that we have to make a decision for us, we cant keep spenidng so much time apart. anyway that is getting side tracked.
yes my husband is australian we grew up in the same smallish country town and both of us coudlnt wait to get out of there. we still call it home though becaseu both our paretns live there adn soem siblings. his dad is not really telling us too much about how he is. he's home from hospital after havign his gallbladder removed and they found a cancerous lump. he is a very stubborn man who i dont believe will change a damn thing about his lifestyle but i will try. there is a wonderful lady in that small town who has been teaching the benefits of juicing and natural healing for more than 20 years. she has worked with many cancer patients with amazing success so i am hoping he will consider seeing her-fat chance but again will try. youve just got to know my father in law.
what do i miss about australia - well mostly the people. i miss those strong women who i ahve talked about. family and friends obviously. my mother and father mostly i feel i have robbed them of their grandchildren. but i also miss jsut teh people. we are a pretty happy lot and dont tend to take life to seriously. we make fun of absolutely everthing and naything adn everyone is your mate. i miss jokign with compelte strangers about silly stuff. everyone looks at me funny here! i also miss the envionmetn tremendously. we lived in paradise and had the ocean literlly at our back door. our weekends involved walking swimming bike riding all in absolute beauty. i use to go on this run every now and then wher i would see no one and be in compete bush setting with water adn rocks adn jsut felt liek i was really alive adn strong and invincible. so i miss that so very much. i also felt like i had more oppurtunites in australia. i worked in the commuinty sector and althoguh untrained i was starting to get jobs that i felt i made a difference. i was looking into going back to shcool. but that will still be there for me when we go home.
you asked me what i liek about america and at teh momet this is hard becaseu i am homesick and generally in america sucks frame of mind - imnot alwasy liek this. but if i had to think about what i would miss when we leave it will be soem of the people we have met. not so much in houston but in the last town we lived in we made soem wonderful friends. particulary two amazing neighbours who made my transition here so easy. and she has become a very good friend. i will miss the oppurtunity to travel it is much more expensive in asutralia. i owuldve said a month ago i will miss eating out but i dont do that as much anymore. again it is really expensive to eat out in asutralia. other little things convienence wise - having evertyging you need 5 minutes away.
mmm i alwasy get nervous when asked about the differenced betweene amercia and australia becasue really i can only talk about my experiences. firstly where we lived in australia was pretty much heaven on earth. we were surrounded by beautuful forest and the ocean in front of us, most of the community was very progressive thinking and active when it came to envioronmental issues politices spirtiualoty soical justcie on and on. so my australia is completey differnet to someone who lived in small rural town who was not enviornmentally aware who voted completey different and couldnt gie a rats arse about soical justice. like my expericence in amercia. first i lived in a small town norht of chicago very mid west ideas and suburbia. now i live in houston oil capital where they drive big cars and i live in a ridiculously rich area where the most contact i have is with the hired help. but as i have said australians are more easy going, there are other differenced in the way we look after our envionment the way we cosume. i also think there is so much pressure in amercia to do well. my kids are not taught to think for themsleves in shcool just how to pass the next exam and get high grades. im going to stop now becasue i dont want to say too much. there are lots and lots of differences adn maybe your english frineds have spoken to you about them. its just too hard to write about and not feel like i am going to offend someone. but i am very greatful to be living here and to have seen soem of the amazing places we have seen. it is all part of my lifes journey adn i am trying to take in all that i can learn.
i havent opened any of the letters yet --but that is a good thing.
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- (Julie) some of my thoughts by Dazzle
18 y
1,519
Hon,
Thank you very much for taking the time to write a beautiful and very interesting letter.
I will write you back! Promise!
*hugs*
~ Dazzle
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- Julie by Dazzle
18 y
1,394
Julie,
Thank you very much for taking the time to share your memories of Australia and for answering my questions.
Firstly, allow me to say, you did not offend me in the least with your comparisons between Australia and America, because babe, you were spot on. It's true, for the most part, the educational system in this country SUX! Any American reading your message would be nodding their heads because they would be recognizing the truth, however ugly it may be.
I sit down to talk with young people all the time and it's apparent most of them did not learn much in school and this is really not their faults. I'll ask questions about this or that and they'll not know what I am talking about and I'll ask, "Well didn't you learn this in school?" And the answer is usually NO. This is either because the kid wasn't listening or the school didn't teach it. At first I thought it was the kid, but now I am thinking it's the school system. Sad, isn't it? One of the most powerful countries in the world is full of illiteracy.
The pictures you drew in my mind as I read your descriptions of Australia are gorgeous. I can only imagine how much you miss the raw beauty of your home. I'd love to visit Australia. Do you have any plans at all to visit soon or even go back home eventually?
My heart goes out to your father-in-law and his stubborness. I'll keep him in my prayers. And I'll keep you and your husband in my prayers as well, as I am sure you two are worried sick. Especially since you can't BE THERE with him.
Well, I am going to write But God again. I am thinking I misunderstood her letter, after reading yours. I thought she was quitting because of the trip to N.O.
*hugs*
~ Dazzle
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- hey dazzle by want2bfree
18 y
1,466
You are doing awsome girl!! Good luck with your boy, and helping hom to get his GED. I am helping my sone who went to a small christian school until his jr. year and then decided he wanted to go get his GED. it really isn't as easy as just getting your high school dimploma. At least that is what they tell me. As long as he has you to help, I am sure he will do just fine.
Yes, why is it the organic stuff is so expensive. You would think it would be cheaper since they aren't spending all that extra money on SPRAYS! I can see why you would like to extend your fast. I think total detox day are calculated your age+17, so say if you were 35...that would be 52 actual days for YOUR body to detox. I have read that in my research....do what your intuition tells you you need, and that will be right.
Always thinking of you and giving you a HIGH 5 even when ya can't see.............Me.
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- Hey Hanna (hey dazzle) by Dazzle
18 y
2,964
Hanna,
Thank you very much for your sweet words. I hope I can live up to them.
How are you helping your son? What kind of structured plans are you doing or are you playing it by ear? Perhaps you can give me some insight as I do feel over my head with this. We're starting at 6th grade... I feel as though I have to get him through grade school, middle school and high school before he can attempt the GED. That's different than with someone who just quit high school... scary!!
I calculated, by your figures, how long I should stay on this fast and well... without revealing how old I am (I hate growing old) I need more than 30 days!!! LOL Good thing I decided to stay on my fast longer. LOL
I sure hope you hang in there, girl. We're here for you!
*hugs*
~ Dazzle
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- Re: Hey Hanna (hey dazzle) by want2bfree
18 y
1,616
WELLLLL,
My son works on his work through an adult education center in my town. The teachers there help him with what he is struggleing with, and I try and help him at home. The problem for him is, he has a bit of a learning disability and the GED tests are timed. He gets so stressed out, and tries to hurry, That he ends up not finishing on time. I am considering looking into the ABEKA home school to finsish his last year. I will send them his transcript and they will tell me what he needs to graduate. TO TIMED TESTS, he will just have to complete it as he would a conventional high school.
At the age your boy is, I would consider some homeschool material. There is a bunch out there, some is Christian based and some isn't. It all depends on what you want, but there is alot of support and people who can answer your questions.
Just type in Homeschool and you will get a ton of info!!
GOOD LUCK...Hanna
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- I know the feeling by But God
18 y
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Hi dazzle,
I know the feeling of not wanting to eat after a long fast, you don't want to lose that clean feeling. I think I told you my husband has already been talking about 40-50 days and that was on his 4th or 5th day. Whatever you decide to do I'll be supporting and praying for you. I'm glad you're hubby is doing the juice, let me know how he's doing. Well just wanted to "holla" (like the younge people say) at cha. Have a wonderful day dazzle.
But GOd
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- Re: I know the feeling by jatack
18 y
1,400
You guys know there are people called Liquidarians who consume only liquids and have lived like that for a long time? There also exists Breatharians who live on nothing but prana. Maybe this feeling of not wanting to go back to eating is a hint from our intuition.. I'm not saying you should, just consider if we were born liquidarians, who says we aren't? What you believe makes a huge difference on how your body reacts.
Good Luck!
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- To Jatack by Dazzle
18 y
1,352
I've heard of those people who can subside on nothing but liquids (which I can understand as long as those liquids are juices with enzymes and nutrients) and I have heard of the Breatharians (which I don't understand).
I agree with you about the intuition aspect of not wanting to stop fasting. To be frank, I have never felt that way on any of my other fasts... when Day 30 or Day 14 came along, that was the end. Period. I may have felt a sense of loss about the end rolling around, but I never felt as though I should continue.
But not this time. I not only felt that sense of loss, but it was intensified along with the thoughts that I should continue, so I am heeding my feelings and will see where it takes me. A journey, for me, is not just getting to the end, but also enjoying the scenery as I go...
Great to see you, Jatack!
~ Dazzle
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- Feeling better while fasting by golden avocado
18 y
1,622
Dazzle,
Although I have not done anywhere near the number of days that you have, I can understand what you say about feeling better while on the fast. During my short fasts I felt better while fasting than before or after. That is, until the cravings started in on me. But I never got past the four or five day mark either.
You have been a great inspiration to me (and to lots of other people, judging by the responses!) these past days.
I am sure your body will tell you what is best for you, and you will make the right decision!
Susan
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