- start/stop...start/stop by mariposa azul
15 y
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Blog: Cleanse My Bulimic little Secret
I began the freakin' cycle all over again. What the hey! Just when I thought it would be different this last time & it wasn't. I just bugged...sad too. I realize that maybe I can't do this alone...maybe I ought to trust and speak to my Doctor. I am considering it now but I don't know if I can.
I start good, it ends bad. I start good, it ends bad. Crazy eating cycle! Want to be done with it.
One thing I know I Can do right now is continue on with day one of my fast. I am doing a 3 day fast.
So today is not bad...kept busy.
My goal is not so much a long term fast anymore, at least is not for now. My goal right now is to break my addiction to food. I believe that fasting can help me break from my food addiction. I need to work on my issues...God, I have so many :) But I plan to tackle one at a time. I want to learn why & how I ever got this bad. The why of my eating disorder. I will figure it out.
I wonder...are there others here like me?
Knock, knock are u there?...cause I'm here. Maybe we can help each other.
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- Re: start/stop...start/stop by luvjoy
15 y
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Good morning, sweetness and light.
Sorry I missed your blog post yesterday - my kids are out of school for their spring break, so don't spend much time online.
I have been wondering how you are doing. I see that there are no other responses posted, have you received any via email? I have so much respect for you for acknowledging what is happening in your life and wanting to understand and heal. I wish I knew more about bulimia so that I could offer help, but just know that I am here and I care and I am praying for you and sending you good juju.
I have been following a diet (for almost 4 wks.) called the Dr. Fuhrman Eat to Live diet. He doesn't talk so much about what NOT to eat, but what you SHOULD be eating. Basically, for the first 6 wks. a vegan diet. Lots of salads, fruits and veggies. A handful of nuts. Some beans for protein. (No meat, sugar or dairy). I am amazed that my cravings for sugar have fallen away. Also surprised that I have not been tempted by meat at all, but I have wanted to try giving it up for some time. It is there at almost every meal and I have NO DESIRE.
Anyway, just thinking that (for me, anyway) - it seems to be true that if you are giving your body plenty of the healthy nutrients that it needs, your cravings for things that you might be tempted to binge on will be reduced.
Just a suggestion, what do I know? haha
Love and peace and joy to you today. May God walk beside you and comfort you and give you the strength you need to recognize that you are perfect.
Love, love, love,
Marie
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- Re: start/stop...start/stop by littlepeace
15 y
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| I am in the same situation it started about 6 months ago--I want to stop--I know where it is coming from it is part addiction grown out of fear and pressure from other people. I have a full life and most people would not be able to tell Im suffering from it but Iam --I an doing a 10 day cleanse --I had tried many times ( 4x) --but could not follow through --thinking its okay---well obviously after 6 months it is not okay--I need to reach that point where I am calm and at peace until I do anything I put in will ultimately lead to binge--Tomorrow Day 1
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- Re: start/stop...start/stop by mariposa azul
15 y
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I have not logged on in a while...so I just read your post.
How are you today?
Like you, I live a secret life...God, I sure put on a show.
I hope you are well and in a good place.
I am working to get there. Time is standing still for me & I am still working on my recovery by myself.
I imagine that is why my progress is so damn slow, huh?!
Wishing you love strength & peace.
Mariposa Azul
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