hacked out from back of throat

picture taken with ipod touch looking in jar. It has a pulse and it lights up like lightening. It is found in bubbles in my spit. There were, I don't know how many of them - obviously 3 or 4 others. Sometimes I feel the pulsing in my stomach and sometimes it feels like my whole self - like an inner layer. Maybe lymph nodes or mucous glands? It's killing me. 5-6 years of symptoms. numerous doctor visits with equal amount of ridicule, cold backs and looks of "your an idiot with psychiatric problems" I'd like to spit my psychiatric problems in their hand - all of their hands.