today's journal

Date:   4/26/2007 3:27:57 PM ( 17 y ago)

My touchpad on my ibook does not work anymore. Should have bought the powerbook. Such is life. Anyway, I've not been able to get on the computer with much regularity because I have to use my husband's desktop. My intake of rawfoods has steadily increased. I am juicing almost every day. I missed yesterday but today I'm juicing. I've begun the habit of bringing a bag of apples to work with me to snack on. My snacking on cooked foods has markedly decreased.

I've had two major revelations related to my current state of mind and fitness. The first and most important is the way I view other people. I had the very bad habit of criticising, complaining and looking down on people who were less fit, fatter than I and/or obese. Specifically directed this habit at women I perceived to have things that I do not have, namely children and a house of their own. I would watch shows like A Baby Story and go on and on about the women in the shows to my husband. Well the other day I went to a class at the hospital and decided to get a tour of the maternity department. Suddenly it hit me. Maybe the reasons why I am still overweight, not having children and not moving out from my FILs house,tc. is because I do things like avoid Walmart during day so I don't have to see the folks there and thus get frustrated. I still won't shop at Walmart during the day because I don't like crowds. However, I won't be condemning of the women I perceive to be out of shape, fat or whatever living a lifestyle I see as unhealthy yet obtaining things I want. Do you see the train of thought? Why am I not getting these things when I'm doing everything 'perfect' or taking good care of myself? Etc. etc.etc.

I have more to say but I'm going out for my powerwalk.

 

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