Romantic Partners... Counting the days since I last got my Walking Papers from Twin Soul/Best Friend. Counting the Days of new Romantic Possibility showing up.

Date:   4/17/2007 6:29:52 PM ( 17 y ago)

4:03 PM
April 17, 2007

Let's see now, it's been 19 days since
Twin Soul/Best Friend gave me my Official
Walking Papers.

They coincided with leaving Egypt,
the restricted place and heading out
for the Promised Land.

On the second night of Passover,
we had a lovely sensual "Don't Eat the Matzah" seder.

We started our march out of Eqypt
the place of addiction by lighting
Memorial Candles.

I read a poem from "Prayers to Mend the Heart"
to Twin Soul/Best Friend,
acknowledging the shift in the veils.

It has been an incredible journey of near
seven years with Twin Soul/Best Friend.

I have enjoyed so many lessons learned
and wonderful intimacy of all kinds,
but the on again off again yo yo sex
finally has been looking to see if there
are any other options for me in the next
phase.

I felt I could have been satisfied having
sex with Twin Soul/Best Friend three times
a year.

It was the quality of the experience
and I never really knew, except on other
special occasions, if we would be Making Love.

Such is the Way of the mentally Prone Gemini
that on occasion liked to get physically prone
with Your Enchanted Gardener.

On Good Friday, April 6, I official
committed that I would not again be
entering her body sexually.

In other years,she would say no more.
Sometimes this would last for nine months
of NO, No, Noo, No, No, No.No,No,
until I showed up on the scene
and suddenly No became Yes.

It was a enjoying ride and fulfilled
the part of me that I have written
about many times in many poems--
the I like Being Kicked Out of the Garden
Syndrome--but I finally accepted
that I had enuf.

Twin Soul/Best Friend would have had
been be her "Cake" while she went out to
eat it too, She said, "She wanted her cake
and to eat it too!"

The great opportunity to hang out in friendship
while she decided to cut off the sex strings;
then there was always the option that I would
be hanging while she remained open to the
new Coupling that she amazed herself in realizing
she wanted.

I have adored this woman, but please,
I would rather place my adoration in another place,
starting with loving myself.

She didn't exactly understand why that wouldn't
be O.K. After all, I had made that transition
with other women after they went back to renew
vows, etc, with former husbands.

The husband actually thanked me for loving his
extranged wife so much that she was a new person.

They got back together again, and invited me to
be part of the family, but there was a lot of pain
hanging out in the single bedroom while they enjoyed
the double bed.

Isn't it amazing the contortions we will put ourselves
through for the love we want from others?

Good God, Twin Soul/Best Friend--I own it all to her
for finally showing me that I had made some shifts
and was no longer into adjusting and letting that
kind of nonsense continue in my life.

We both had done so much marvelous growing up
this past winter. Our relationship had been really good,
but the truth was, and Twin Soul/Best Friend was
correct, I was still looking forward to being inside
her body, even if the opening was not offered since
the Winter before.

Amazing how two people could so thoroughly enjoy each other
and God between them, and then shut the door, but we would
do it again and again year after year.

No more!

On Good Friday I finally decided I would no being
into her, even if it was offered.

Best Friends? I haven't called since March 30.

We are so close that I am sure she is well
and I wish her the best that she enjoy the pleasure
of her own company; more than this,
I know she is an incredibly amazing woman
who many other women and men would love to be with
sexually. It is all in her court now.

I am not wanted to interfere and spend time in her
energy field.

She is being high respectful and has not made contact.

Let's see...

This morning I ordered a Romantic Compatibity
report that compares a lot of things between me
and a new potential Romantic Alliance.

I am not sure what will come out of this.

I have been putting out for my Most Compatible
Soul Mate.

Soul Mates are different than Twin Souls.
Twin Souls are like a part of you. What you feel
they feel. There are many lessons that go with
hanging with your Twin Soul. It is a fast road
to Soul Growth.

Soul Mate...I am sure she will teach me a lesson
or two or three, but I am asking for a high degree
of compatibility now.

This one has a ranking of

5--attraction #
2--intensity (her to me)
4--compatibility #

4 is highly compatible, "Would you like to be married?"

in Robert Camp's Love Card book.

If you do not know that book, you are missing one of the
finest books you can possibly have for checking out
Attraction, Intensity, and Compatibility with a potential
partner.

I even use it when I interview house mates.
IT gives me great insight into the person.
I highly recommend, "Love Cards" by Robert Camp.

Of Course, friends who poo poo Earth Day
we likely also poo poo this book.

After all, what about the esoteric history behind
the deck of cards would help a person identify
a potential compatibility with a new lover?

I haven't time now to explain why I believe it works.

Here is the address for the Compatibility Profile
from Astro that I ordered today.

It was here in a couple hours.


http://www.astrocom.com/products/reports.php


Twin Soul/Best Friend, it's a chilling out time
for me with her...no can say, only that I am enjoying
the respect she has for me in not being in touch.

I affirm she is well.
She is quite a woman, even if I am running
some feelings that I am pissed.



____


3:22 PM
April 17, 07



Turning my head to some practical concerns
about the "Sign a Love Letter to Joe the Farmer/
Plant Your Dream Exhibit" that will exist
in time and space from 10 AM -5 PM, April 22, 2007
in Space 706 of area 7N Pan American Plaza North,
Balboa Park, San Diego, CA.

Gosh! I am having a heck of a time, figuring out
exacting where this spot is on the map.

I worked on this for about 40 minutes and then
gave up. A most enjoyable email came in;
a Romantic Compatibility Report between me and
a woman I have been emailing for about five days.


http://www.Astrocomputing.com

does an excellent job at generating these reports.

I ordered this a few hours ago, and here is the PDF
file in the mail already!!!!

Judith Curran is now the head of the company that
was once owned by Neil Michelsen, a dear friend
and Enchanted Garden Sponsor.

The original Whole Peace Celebration Declaration
of Interdependence was generated on their enormous
computer in the days before we had the kind of PC and Macs
we have today.

If you have difficulty ordering a report,
call 800.514.5010.

I could not figure out how to order!!!

You have to push the plus on the shopping cart.

I was rather annoyed that I could not figure this out!!!

I guess this is a day for not being about to pinpont
where things are....definite irritation and annoyance
in my field of energy...

I better rest and then get down to business....

yes, Leslie take a nap, says Mrs. Brown my editor
in spirit.


 

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