laziness or emotional eating disorder? more the first probably...

Date:   8/9/2006 8:33:44 PM ( 18 y ago)

I'm taking a two week LOA because I'm in a world of confusion and as I expressed to ... I have the least amount of weight to lose and I don't want to ruin it for anyone else. I'm going through a tremendous period of questioning about my weight and whether I want to be raw so I'm taking off to give it serious thought. I'm sticking to my goal of being in a bodybuilding show ( had a great workout today). I want to get over my anxiety of the scale, a requirement for bootcamp! and food obsession. I wanted to let you guys know what I'm doing because I really like you guys. I sent one bootcamper a note but I decided to put this out in the open. This feels like what they called 'recycling' in the real world military bootcamp but it's necessary. If I can't adhere to all the rules then I'll have to separate from the group and put myself into a special period of time where I evaluate myself and why I find scales and 100% raw irritating. It's partly about food but it's also quite emotional.

 

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