spiritual updates

Date:   11/7/2006 7:16:59 PM ( 18 y ago)

I left the home I knew for twenty five years on July 5th, a very rainy morning. It was a ten hour drive to the mountains...oops I mean MOUDENS as my FIL says CUZ the Cross Island flooded out. Well anyway, my sister and I spent a day at Fire Island and we walked through the Pine Barrens. It is a truly beautiful place to go if you get to visit Long Island. I also was able to swim in the ocean completely naked, something I've wanted to do for a long time. I felt completely free and the ocean water was a completely different experience than bathing with a swimming suit. I was brought back to that place today as I was laying down relaxing and rebooting myself from packing in the work hours over the weekend. I caught a glimpse of myself as I truly meant to be but not in full view. Only when reaching the eighth gate of deep spiritual meditation would I see myself in full view. It was the call of my Higher Self. I've not attended church in over a month, not received communion in over a month. Maybe that's it. Plus I've been getting more impressions from deceased spirits. I really need to get back to church so that I can protect myself spiritually from demonic forms and psychic/emotional vampires. Plus I need to get back to praying the most holy rosary, a powerful spiritual weapon.

Either way, I feel a powerful pull backwards to my childhood. I was in bed watching bellydancing videos and telling my husband how much I want to learn bellydancing. It's something I wanted to do in college but couldn't do because of the veil of mental illness. He thought describing my times in college as mental illness was a bit much. It's true. I wasn't myself, except for those rare times I tried to enjoy myself like hiking in the Grand Canyon, going to the Red Rocks in Sedona. Visiting there YES YES YES I do believe that Sedona is a spiritual vortex. I would totally go there again. Except now I would appreciate everything in the light of a full flower of right mindedness. I can't think of anything worse than going through life not being able to enjoy it. Thankfull God is a God of second chances.

 

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