piles of snow and depressed loved one

Date:   2/12/2006 11:37:02 AM ( 18 y ago)

Well here I am snowed in. I had two cups of tea, some fresh applesauce with yogurt and a few spoons of unprocessed bran, oh and two slices of live bread earlier this morning. I don't think I'll eat for a while now since my activity level is zero :D I'm reading curezone, reading thegardendiet.com, going through Jinjee's journal and listening to the Breakthrough DVD.

I've noticed that my period didn't start out crampy. It's also late too by a day or so. I didn't have a nasty, clumpy mucus-y show that announces it's arrival like I usually do. I ate more raw fruits this month, drank kombucha tea and wheatgrass and drank less coffee. I also started the bikram yoga. Maybe that's it. Of course, I will be tracking this in more detail on my other blog 'Heal Thyself/Sacred Woman'. I'll be using natural family planning so I need to keep an eye on these things. I'm in bed not doing much anyway so maybe that's another factor. I don't know how it will be tomorrow when I have to go to work and sit at a desk all day.

I feel a little grouchy. No doubt caffeine and scones withdrawl ;-)

My love sent me a note that he was thinking about suicide because of money trouble stemming from his past depression. It's just amazing the coping mechanisms we all come up with. I've been there before, using thoughts to comfort myself. It's almost like a temporary escape, yet I've never shared that with other people. I've not had those thoughts for a few years now. It's just so weird to hear someone ELSE say it. He's worried that I will not marry him because of this. I want to. One thing I'm learning about getting into health consciousness, raw food and physical immortality/longevity is that life becomes filled with unlimited possibility. I suppose there are other women who would not go through with this marriage. Some people have security issues. It would be different if he was lazy and a total raggamuffin. He's not. I've never been so happy in all my life and I just don't see how it would benefit him or me to break off the engagement at this point.

More on this later. Right now I'm getting together a shopping list for the fruit stand. Boy am I ever glad I bought that thermos off ebay. I had two cups of herbal tea on the way to get my new tiara and veil. Excellent!



 

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