Watched a film during the night, "The Incredible Shrinking Man" I am shrinking too. Hope and Faith are asked now. I am not functional in the Bigger picture.

Date:   12/28/2005 11:54:14 AM ( 19 y ago)

Woke up feeling a need for prayers.
I turned on a movie in the middle of the night
"The Incredible Shrinking Man" and watched
spellbound as this fella got smaller and smaller
fighting against cats bigger than he was and
a spider. He was lost in a basement a grated
window between him and the outside world until
he was smaller enough to fit through the openings
come into nature. He kept shrinking and shrinking.
Then, almost down to downing, he had an epihany
with God and seemed to explode into inspiration
seeing himself as one with the whole Universe.

I see the same pattern in the garden right now.
The last of the leaves have fallen off the Nectarine tree.
I can see where spider webs, perhaps deserted, are
near the core of the bamboo holding up the structure
of the tree. And me, where am I in all this?

It is the fourth day of Light coming to the world in the
metaphor of the Hannukah celebration. I find groping
for meaning and the larger picture--that epihany with God.

I am lost in details, and unlike teachers of Feng Shui
I cannot find that much energy in the details here of cleaning
up and ordering but I am willfully committed to this process.

I am not where in a place where I can deal with some detail
levels of finances, just going through boxes is my speed
and finding various little sparks amid the rubble of things
that show up.

I had a breakthrough in communication yesterday with one
housemate...the energy was really leaking out around work
down or higher rent paid. That was a big breakthrough to get
that cleaned up.

The Nikken products in the kitchen and bathroom seek to
be mirroring my energetic process. The water filter in the kitchen
is wasting water, and this morning, there was another astounded
leak in the shower water filter. I dipped deap into the closet and found
another unit, but it seems I need to call Joanie, my dear friend
and the NIkken enthusiast, and find out about some parts that
are now dysfunctional.

So what is the Bigger picture for me?

There are energies in the wings that will ask me to really
man my talents before long.

There are issues BIG, BIG issues that will come up for me
to deal with as far as real estate purchase of this house.
I even got a call yesterday from one of the major co-owners
of the house, who is on tract to pursue some changes.
These changes seem beyond my capacity right in this moment.

It is like the Hanukkah metaphor them cleansing the Temple
and then finding only enough Oil to burn for one night, but it
burned for eight nights...thus the metaphor of the eight nights
of candle lighting for this holiday.

I created yesterday morning, taking a stand on
the bathroom upstairs. I also had a good communication
with two other housemates, as we gardened out roots
for a patch in the side garden, preparing for new seeds
to be planted.

I want to get through the boxes on the floor on the East side
of the bed...there are seeds in there that have been lying there
for more than a season. I found old chinese seeds and lots
of Holy Basil.

I did some web site work last night, and light the third night candle.

It would be good to see where I am headed better, so I do not
get distracted so much in things as I cleanup.

What is the Bigger Picture? How best to use the Winter energy?

Why is my Purpose? What do I want to see?

What are between me and the confidence to create bigger?

Clear and clean.
Clear and clean.

This Prayer here by Liora is
giving me strength now
to know that there will be New Creation again
above ground, and this Step I am in NOW
is an Organic Step and needs to be taken.

I feel more hopeful seeing this lovely collaboration
between her Poem and this photo work.

http://curezone.com/blogs/c/c.asp?d=3973

eg
9:53 AM

 

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