Cleaning up progress report

Date:   12/20/2005 11:07:35 AM ( 19 y ago)

I have been working on my cleanup,
clearing areas.

Last night I was bored stiff.
I organized the file cabinet where I store stamps
and postcards to send.

Woody Allen movies finally saved me.

I am reminded of an experience
that happened many years ago
when someone came in and planted two
seedlings of trees very close together.

Sanda pointed out how years from now
they would be too close together.

Every time we plant a seed, it is going to grow into something
that will take a lot of time and space.

Time because for each Seed Dream there are
thousands and thousands of details that go with
bringing it to harvest.

Space because for each idea...we are going to need lots
of room to store the pieces of its wholeness that will be needed.

I have heard of time debtors but have never looked into this.
I imagine it has something to to do with doing too much and arriving
always late for appointments. Time debting is about attempting
to stuff too many seeds in one minute.

Doing too much comes from feeling not enuf,
I sense. Having too muhc comes from feeling not enuf.

I am paying the price now in disorganization and boredom
and feelings of loss of vision as I attempt to make sense
of the world I have created.

"You are doing too much to success at any one of these"
is a common inner coaching I hear in my head.

I would like to reestablish the Altars in my room soon.
I am still working on clearing areas where things where
hastily piled.

There is not much energy in a lot of this clearning.
Sometimes I find treasures.

The treasures are on the shelves of notebooks, but
I have not gotten to those yet.

I felt kind of fluish yesterday, and under the weather.
I did not feel like eating anything and this gave me a headache.

I always up when I feel fresh ideas and people coming in and out
of my life, and also hear from the close ones. I like to know what they
are thinking about. Somehow this gives my life meaning.

More to say...
I better not say too much if I want to make more physical progress
right now.

catch up later....

your eg
9:06 AM
12 days from the end of this secular year

 

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