feeling the pangs of success... and not afraid to say, "Hold me."

Date:   7/22/2005 2:47:00 PM ( 19 y ago)

How good can you stand it?
Is your life as good as it can get?

I am having a shaky hour or two
that comes from not being use to accepting this much good
flowing through me.

Can you relate?

The energy of good shoots through and you feel it,
then it hits a narrow place and says hello to the growth materials
stuck there that is being now asked to move
and flow and allow.

Have you ever felt love and desire
maybe your body talking and wanting to be held
so gobs and gobs of Love of the Universe wanting to pour through,
so then you allow, but what happens next?

it hits feelings, uncomforable feelings..
maybe feelings of need that you have not learned to love yet.

Adults should not have feelings of need, should they?
They should not be in positions of losing control
and all that stuff that comes up when we open up, right?

So, i am here at the Pacific College Library.
I am on my way to Whole Foods to see a beautiful flower maker
who will help with creation the Enchanted Garden Altar
of Seed Dreams that will have its installation in 13 days at
the feng shui conference at the Hilton San Diego Resort.

I must met with Al. He is 99% visual, and he likes food.
He doesn't like to read much. What a perfect guy to take
the artwork on the disks i just gave him, make prints and then do some
framing.

I am not used to this kind of support.
IT makes me unsettled. Can you handle the support you need?

I spend a lot of time accepting and forcing myself to rise up above
discomfort, but how good can i stand it, if i had the support that
I imagine at times i do not have?

So, I am going to Whole foods and eat..
catch up with Onndlee and let her know that my friend Michael
o.ked me having the flowers i need for the conference.

So next is getting back the edit for the request from natural food companies
to sent in things, communicating with Hermann the chef about an ideal menu,
and then allowing natural food companies to give us these ingredients.

Can all that happen in five days, the 27th of August?

Normal people take months to work stuff like this out,
but I never said I was the norm.
Hopefully, the relationships i have created over the years
will get the right calls made and all this will flow organically.

So what else can i do to enjoy my life now?

Whole Being weekend preview tomorrow in the country...
a change to be with the Tribe at Beeler Creek for a day...
a chance to drum up support for the lunches...
a chance for some hugs and lovely faces.

What other slides and photos do I want Al to see?

A couple hours worth.

I feel I am ready for a new computer.

Better add that in to my needs assessment list.

The Universe is asking to flow right now through me
so i will get some accupunture in about an hour.

Had fun with Suzanne this morning.
We did a photo shoot having her lay on the peppermint geranium patch
and cover her body with 500 seed packets from
Seeds of Change that arrived a few days ago.

Lovely.

your eg

12:46 PM San Diego...
yikes...if I want news flash from OTA to the members...
they had better get word today...
is that possible?

Who is the one person that can move the energy next
to get the foods i would like for the organic food lunches?

 

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