Just woke up at around 3 20 AM with renewed energy to step out on faith with my proposal to create a group purchase for the Hidden Valley Health Ranch. I cannot tell you how many times I have planted seeds and then ripped them out of the ground before they even had a chance to become plants. Do you get my metaphor. Let me know with an email if you do the same. I think it has a lot to be with feeling I am NOT ENUF.

Date:   4/1/2005 6:13:57 AM ( 19 y ago)

We had a house meeting last night, and they were talking about ADD...attention deficit disorder. I think anyone who
is not ADD in our society must be doing something really spiritually profound, especially during these days of Mercury Retrograde, when I can hardly string two thoughts together that are coherent without intense spiritual practice.

During the meeting, I started to really doubt the incredible writing I did yesterday that I posted in my Blog called
"Owning a Piece of the Rock"

http://curezone.com/blogs/m.asp?f=92&i=82

I cannot tell you how much clutter I have created in my life
throughj jerking up by most special Seed Dreams of books,
art, beautiful creations, etc through question, doubting, how knowing how, fearing, etc.

This is the same as to "Plant Your Dream!" and then before it even has a chance--to abort the dream because you imagine you are NOT ENUF.

Dreams are like children...we are intended to give them birth.
We are intended to feed, clothe, house, nurture them, but we are then suppose to put them out and let them do what they are going to do. We can't control our dreams, although we have a responsibility to be adults about putting them out.

For years, I have been saying that I am doing too many things to succeed at any of them.

This is true.

On the other hand, if I polish and listen to my spirit and just
put out my dream about Jensen's, the right people will come.

I do not have to give up my life because I am willing to polish this dream.

It is a commitment, a vigilant commitment to "Plant Your Dream!" and then the universe, the universe, not me, continue to help make it real in flesh and blood.

And so, I am going to do something really different.
I am going to keep listening to my spirit and doing the next organic step.

I do not know how this is possible to make this happen.

The main thing I need to do is put it out, as well as take care of myself through setting aside funds--a small percent--for all the energy that it will take in my time and strength to do plant this dream.

In the Essene work they say, the servant is worth their hire.

One of my real estate advisors said I should be taking a per cent for putting this "deal'' together.

I am doing this for our community and all people.

I am going to continue to do my best.

I am not going to rip this dream out of the ground because
I do not see all the pieces to make it succeed.

I am going to plant this dream.

I am going to take the next organic step.
I am going to make sure I am taking care of myself
in all ways because i am good enough.

However this turns out, I will have done my best,
and that will have been good enough.

Your Enchanted Gardener

Do you hear me?

You can go above my name in this Blog,
right under where it has Plant Your Dream!
and you can send me an Email.

I would like to hear what you think about what
I am saying here.

Your Enchanted Gardener Leslie

Comments are also welcome on the
Jensen Tribute Site I have been
building here:

http://lesliegoldman.com/Bernard_Jensen/id17.htm

 

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