Collage from the Book of Shadows by LFIRE(c)2020
I was about to send off this blog so that my friend could post it for me...
I had been watching TV and at about 11:45 P.M., an ad came on,
and this is what happened...
Suddenly I was in a different reality!
A different time and place!
I was sitting with a really big book (maybe 2 feet square);
I was looking (at a past time) in my NOW life and
I was interested in the many times I had "died" (had near death experiences).
It seemed that what actually happened was that I really did "die" but that my life
just continued on and that it just continued in a straight line...
But it didn't.
Instead, I had some big changes in my life. Something changed,
and I was a new person, with new thoughts and new ideas.
Yet to me it seemed that the "old me" continued on;
I tried to try to make the "old me" work.
Even though I tried as hard as I could, that "old me" just didn't work.
I could never figure out why.
Each near death experience brought more and more frustration.
Then came a stroke...another near death experience.
I did "die" (yet again) !
Many new things and information showed up.
This time was different than ever before...
this time I recognized that I had become somebody "new".
I could feel different, had new thoughts and new ideas.
The stroke brought much "forgetfulness";
however, part of it was the new "me" developing..
Others have had some of this happen: in having a trauma show up,
and then getting some new thoughts and ideas,
but often they don't recognize that they have changed into a new person
and they keep trying to make the "old person" work.
They don't understand why it doesn't.
So there I was, stroke and all, frustrated why people kept bringing up stuff
that I "know" about but it seems foreign to me "now"...
Why bring "that" up, why talk about "that"...that was a different life!!!!!
The focus should be on the "new" life... it is in development.
I'm not sure where it is heading...
Then as I looked over the book more, I glanced ahead,
interested to see what would occur.
It seemed that I developed the "NEW ME"
and expanded it and created interesting experiences with it.
Then, at some point, I decided to move from that life on into a new expression
and an even newer life.
The whole thing was exciting and very informative;
I LEARNED A LOT!!!
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Being still
and doing nothing
are two different things!
It's been quite a challenging month,
with really hard negative energies all around.
This month has been filled with intense work applying for an artist grant.
No big deal (you say)... HA HA HA HA, guess again.
Stress beyond stress, with weeks of redoing it all,
again and again. My math SUCKS!
I finally needed to ask my friend to help me.
She got overwhelmed as well.
At last we got it done and sent in.
Now the wait is on. I'm told it will be August before I find out the results.
As if I had nothing else to do, I made a bunch of small collages
for a gift for a friend's birthday coming up soon.
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WONDERINGS
Journey to the INside
How many doors are lining the sides of the hallway?
Which one (or ones)
should I open?
If I choose and open a door and...SURPRISE !
I don't like what is inside ...do I get to pick a different door?
Do I get to have as many choices as I want?
Running quickly, opening as many doors as I can...
faster, faster...
I keep thinking the next door will be better than the last...
5...4...3...time is running out...
What can I do... ...NOW?
FRACTAL LIFE
EYE (I)
It is ONLY my perception
EYE
I am the camera to my life.
What am I SEEING...NOW?
Is my lens clear?
Is my lens cracked?
What Reality am I seeing?
My EYE (I)
can only show my own perceptions
EYE (I)
is the reflection of the ALL!
All Blogs from 2020:
Crossing the Bridge: https://www.curezone.org/blogs/fm.asp?i=2432605
Strange Times https://www.curezone.org/blogs/fm.asp?i=2431998
Burst of Creativity: https://www.curezone.org/blogs/fm.asp?i=2431256
Art and Poetry for the New Year: https://www.curezone.org/blogs/fm.asp?i=2430548
End of the Year/New Year Messages
https://www.curezone.org/blogs/fm.asp?i=2429770