Day 25, some change in the fast - tiredness, ate something small, keeping track of the low energy.

Date:   11/10/2012 9:18:47 PM ( 12 y ago)

It's the 25 day mark today - still early in the day, slept quite late - this last week my dream activity has increased dramatically, and I've been sleeping in in the mornings with dream after dream after dream. I seem to be running on less the last little while - only the last few days really I've been feeling this. I think it will pass, waves of being more tired/more energized is pretty normal when fasting.

Yesterday I had a big day for a faster, out of the house and driving from one errand to the next for just a little too long in a lot of traffic with a bf who caused some harmless but really unnecessecary stress and drama. That really threw me off - resulted in me hitting a kind of wall when I got home at last. Dealt with it all ok at the time, but when the pressure to do so came off and I got back home I just crumpled. It really does highlight the fact that you don't have the same thick skin or reserve that you normally might, and that when fasting, you do need more rest, nurture, just become more inwards generally - your energy especially, as it is directed in on that big cleanup and transformation - and it can be too much for the faster to have to deal with something that stretches them into a bit of stress, whether it be just a little too long out and about or some drama or other encountered by others in a very negative headspace.

I find myself when fasting, to be in general in very good spirits, very clear minded - positive, and to be fairly active - it does slow you down somewhat, and I do get tired earlier in the day. I've been reading that it's normal for fasters to need less sleep - I've never known this to be the case though - I do find myself some nights with the urge to get up after a few hours sleep and do some stretching or something - it's too cold in the house usually to do so though :) spring is moving into summer a bit more noticibly now though, so who knows.. Might just find myself doing some midnight yoga which would be cool.

Felt very drained yesterday afternoon after the day out and the drama, it threw me, had a bath and had to just lay down in bed feeling really low and just wiped - that was really unusual and I don't think it would have occurred if not for the stress caused by the day out. I laid there for a few hours and had a lot of mental cravings for a few different things, in the end after it went on so long I wondered if maybe my body really did want something and couldn't really tell. I thought if I just rested it would subside, which was somewhat true - I ended up going out and eating about 1/2 an avacado and a couple handfuls of plain corn chips with some dips - it felt good, went down fine and I felt better afterwards. Woke again this morning, feeling like the fast is still trucking along - it's about 2pm now, have only had a cup of tea and some water and am going to go out and get a few gardening things and putter about. I have noticed my energy levels have kinda slowed right down - so I'm not sure what to do. I'm not feeling particularly hungry - though the idea of eating a few things for a few days might get the energy back - I do want to continue on with the fast, not at the expense of being so low in energy that I'm not getting anything done.
Either way I go - haven't decided yet, I'm going to continue on - I've been enjoying this fast way too much to stop it here at this point, might eat a few sushi rolls slowly over a day or two and then go back on juices - or I might just have a juice or two and wait this out and see if my energy comes back without it. Will keep posting, not upset about any of it - just have a lot to do and want to be at a level where I can keep going with it all - yoga, the projects and work I'm involved in. Lots always on the go for this one. For some reason the idea of juice just does very little for me at the moment - I don't know why this is, if it's mental or if it is physical, the little snack last night did seem to pep me up though - maybe a fasting intermission can be a good thing sometimes - pretty easy to do so and just go back to it, not much interruption anyway really as long as you consume something small and easy to assimilate.
Don't really feel like I'm breaking down or giving in or any of that kinda thing - after 24 days, I wouldn't give myself a hard time lol! It's silly to get negative anyway, so many times we beat ourselves up and it only results in making things worse and a disheartened situation. What is better is positive re-inforcement, being gentle with yourself and above all continuity of direction towards goals. If you stumble, you just get up, brush yourself off and keep going. If you do something different, it might be for the best anyway - you need to listen to yourself and work with that, be your own best friend - for a healthy mind and best way forward. Doing awesome, just not sure what is going to produce the best result - hard to know sometimes what will really bring you up or down - experimentation usually teaches us, gotta break some eggs etc to learn - which is why it's good to keep these logs of my fasts - so I can learn from my own patterns through the years. Might write a bit more over the next few days as I navigate what is happening - probably a good thing to do. Not feeling bad, just more drained than I'd like to feel. Hmmmm... Going to go about my day and see how that progresses. Report back later.




 

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