Digesting an interpersonal encounter in light of my Human Design

Date:   5/4/2011 5:54:35 AM ( 13 y ago)

To start with I have the 12/22 Channel of Openness defined and I recognize how that is described in Chetan Parkyn's book: Human Design (that you can look at at books.google[2] however that particular channel is not included at Google books.)

I'm onto my search path now with the terms: "emotional manifesting generator" which I consider my Type and especially having the three emotional based channels that I have defined: 6/59, 12/22 and 37/40.
Update June 7, 2011: I also have 39/55 Channel defined while Neptune is transiting gate 55 in the Emotional Center this year!

Here's the first statement on this search:
"A defined Solar Plexus (Emotional Center) transforms the strategy of the Manifesting Generator (MG). The Sacral response is already in a competitive environment with the manifesting potential of the MG. MG's generally meet the most resistance as not-self. Only a deep trust in the genuine value of waiting and digesting will save the not-self emotional MG from a combustible combination of emotionalized frustration and anger."[3]

I readily recognize the potential for "a combustible combination of emotionalized frustration and anger". That is why I need to be as selective as I have just decided to be based on a very recent encounter with another where I asked if I could be more direct and blunt with my feelings regarding this other one's situation. As it turned out my feelings were a surprise to this other and so much so that they made mention of it and marveled at how much emotion I was expressing on the subject matter. Fortunately my expression did not ignite with anger although I did have "emotionalized frustration". I count the encounter as very informative for me! I see the limitations that another can have with allowing my emotional expression which Chetan states "(I) tend to take the path less traveled ... with innovative interactions that most would consider off-limits" also: "... be wary of who shares your emotions, because they can arrive with an impact some people struggle to understand, let alone handle."

Just discovered something that I actually had awareness of in the course of my interaction with the other with whom I was relating with earlier:
"People with the 37/40 need to have physical interaction with their associates."[4]

I was on a telephone call with this other individual and I realized that I had a strong need to have direct (physical) contact and that the telephone was not going to provide that opportunity and so I declined a request for another communication cycle as we had just been doing. If I could have redone what followed I would have very graciously chosen not to continue any more conversation and to have concluded with considerable equanimity. I would then have processed my own feelings on my own (something I am capable of doing). Instead a I began responding out of what soon became emotionalized frustration. Fortunately, the emotionalized frustration was comparatively moderate for me. (I was not in the rage range!) I was definitely feeling the frustration and had thought I could express this and that will be that! However it wasn't received in that way. This is the part where I have to really be discerning about who I can share my feelings with. In this instance - what I expressed was judged as an attacking criticism (no discussion inquiring "what was that about?") and resisted (rather than considered as there was no acknowledgement or understanding expressed like: "I can understand how you can say that"). It was completely discounted and rejected. Chetan speaks about being "wary" about who one with the channel definition reveals feelings with but I think I am beyond simply being "wary" and just not going to even consider sharing my emotions with this particular individual again.

Unfortunately (I think) I am not going to be available to communicate "casually" on the subject matter of this other individual because I see things in the behavior of this other that co-create situations that I feel emotionally triggers me. I am not willing to allow for those triggers to spring up in me as long as I have choice about it. And I always have choice about what I don't want to express in my relating with others!

Back to "Waiting": Human Design teacher: Mary Ann Winiger says: "I think this word is the hardest thing for new people to hear when they learn about their strategy: wait to respond, wait for an invitation, wait 28 days, wait for emotional clarity. These different types of waiting make up about 94% of humanity."[5]

Waiting is definitely part of my Design and I count myself most blessed to feel that I am very well with waiting. I fully accept it as my Design Strategy. I recently got to see myself through applying my strategy "To Wait" in considering an significant invitation and after quite a number of days my energy moved from all internal to one step toward a possible positive response. Then another potential offer came to me and I then saw I had a preference for this invitation. Then I observed my energy had "peeked" in regards to the first invitation and it now appears to be diminishing. All of that was only possible by my waiting and observing how I feel emotionally. Waiting has given me emotional clarity which is my Inner Authority. This is just one example of how important waiting can be for anyone who has a Human Design Type "To Wait".

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April 9, 2017 -

Those of us with Defined Sacral Centers could be the very best candidates for anyone willing to offer us "Twenty Questions".[1]

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Notes:

[1] https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Twenty_Questions

[2] http://books.google.com/books?id=vHJKi0oubf0C&pg=PA229&lpg=PA229&dq=%22chetan...)

[3] http://www.humandesign.com/emotional-manifesting-generator

[4] http://www.humandesign.com/forum/nov-2004-teacher-joanne-simpson

[5] http://www.humandesignconcepts.com/index.php?option=com_content&view=article&...

 

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