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Date:   12/17/2008 1:16:31 AM ( 16 y ago)

30 apples
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€4.46


A note regarding the nature of my juices: none of it has been organic. This is simply due to the all too familiar monetary issues - while already having spent a humongous amount of money on juicing goods I can't possibly invest even more on organic produce. Not to mention we probably don't even have that many farmer's markers in the whole capitol area in Finland.
However, that does go violently against my principles, and thus upon returning to an all-raw diet I'm also going to hold on to an all-organic diet where humanly possible. Also another aspect I'm going to take into consideration is local produce - from next year on I'll concentrate solely on seasonal fruit and veggies. The ecological burden on growing and transporting exotic fruit for far-away Finlandia is a shame, and I don't want to be part of that. On top of that I think our bodies are accustomed to locally available seasonal harvest on some level.
The only con in this is that the harvesting season is close to non-existent up here, and not only are Finnish fruit and veg always tiny but expesive there's also not that much variation available. But I'm not going to judge before trying. Afterall I'm strictly committed to trying every nutrition-related regime that makes clear sense to me, otherwise there's no way I can personally (as a Nutritionist wannabe) recommend such things to anyone. One of these extreme non-hippocratic example-setting complexes of mine.

Another thing I've now begun experimenting on is sleeping on a hard surface. Yep, I folded one duvet on the floor beside my massive bed, and used another as my cover. And no pillow, of course.
Well? I didn't sleep all that comfortably, but I can remember waking up during the night only twice (the other time to pop to the loo, since I haven't been able to get rid of all the water from my enemas in one go lately). The hard surface didn't feel exactly uncomfortable, actually I remarked already half a year ago while suntanning in my living room that laying on the plastic carpet of the floor felt calming, like a step closer to embracing mother earth, very soothing. Now I'm assured I'll get used to the new sleeping arrangements after a little while, just like when I fist felt it hard to withdraw from pillows I so loved but can't now even think of sleeping with.

I didn't have the energy to go for morning exercise today, and if not physically I can sense it in my spirits. When I actually do something before going to work it makes me feel more in control of my life, like I've got more time and things to do outside of office hours. I hope to get to sleep early enough today to have energy tomorrow morning, since even more off-putting than not getting something done before work is getting it done by means of taking the time off my precious sleeping time.

Sleeping has always been sacred to me, I could sleep days in a row, and actually slept more or less 15 hours straight between Saturday and Sunday, so no big parties on Saturday, obviously (since I only went to have a little nap in my friend's bed but my sense of occasional over-indulgence and laziness and proneness to pampering took over). 9 hours would probably be ideal for me, has been since childhood, but even that one extra hour seems so hard to find.

I'm sooooo glad I don't own a TV set, I'd be DOOMED. I've noticed such a drastic difference in evenings with and without all those brainless Yankee dramas - I get amazingly more done with a nicely calm mind while not dividing any of my attention to manipulating, dramatizing, scary, worrying, tiring, ridiculous "entertainment". I am entertained much more easily with much less influenced consequences. I like to retain my own mind. No matter how much my biggest desire as a kid was to blend in I'm now only grateful and proud never to have been a part of a mass.

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Today's luxuries are taken too much as a given. I want to retreat back to a state where most accommodities start feeling like goodness-given luxuries again. the are times when we must demand and develop more, but the permanent state should constitute of gratitude for all we've already acquired. We should take many more moments to realise how much worse off things would be, and then settle in a consciousness that is of delight, satisfaction and calm.

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Already yesterday I noticed another unmistakable detox symptom - phlegm I need to clear my throat of. It's nothing thick and nothing I could cough up, but something that reminds me of the negatives of dairy consumption. Hmm.

 

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