2:01 PM
August 15, 08

Just up from a Nap.
Been working with details of
downloading Quicken transactions online
so I could make a COPY. Copy is stored
in Documents.

I am feeling body rage/other emotions/
discouragement/over the distance this takes
me from the thngs that give my life joy.
This is a full time job for someone.

I would like to surrender to getting a complete
on the new internet/cable/filter account.

I am overshadowed by feelings of not what a bad/etc/
behavior flawed person I am i the eyes of one of my housemates.

I better settle down now, so I can move on to other things
besides this financial report.

Going to put other details of the work I do not in
Compelting internet blog I started yesterday.



7:19 AM
August 15, 08

Thanks to Liora Leah for posting this insightful
Spirit Speaks Blog that explain some of the energies
that kept me awake for hours.


http://curezone.com/blogs/fm.asp?i=1237990


This is a massive initiation going on now
for those willing to become Awake.

Awake oftens means looking and coming to Peace
with issues in the Dark.

Some people judge the Dark. Others simple find healthy ways to embrace it.

We are exploring using Non Violent Compassionate (NVC) Tools here
at the Enchanted Garden Intentional Community.

Last nights House Meeting was a bust as well as maybe a Blessing.

At one point, I felt the meeting was being dominated by one voice in
particular. An item came up that I had put on the Agenda.
Someone else asked to speak first, so I deferred. Then the woman with
the dominant energies wanted to speak without realizing it was my Agenda Item.

I blasted her in a Male Fashion, saying something like "Hold on!"
I claimed the floor. She felt my outburst and tone was rude.
She blasted back. There were years of energy behind what she said,
including years of affront that a woman with military experience can have
with the "Admiral." She was not going to let herself be cut off.
Good for her.

At another point earlier, I started to express feelings of overwhelm.
She put me down, saying something like "Stop Self Indulging!" She cut me off.

Then we went into the meeting. She had a lot to say.

We were attempting to practice this Non Violent Compassionate Communication.
I definitely stuck my foot in it a couple times.

In this Model, you start by saying, I feel....
Then, you go into...
and then, I request....

There is a lot on the web about this Model that some
here called a gardening Tool for Cultivating the Inner Garden.

This Model is all about getting your needs met.

The woman with the dominant energy really felt put down by me.
I am not sure she was Awake to the times she put me down,
or brought up things that kept me awake.

At one point toward the end, I asked for support spiritual to get a new housemate.
The dominant one, helped to call in the Angels with others, but I really did not have
my wits about me in regard to the kind of housemate that we wanted.

I seldom express leadership around this dominant woman.
I definitely feel put down by her.

We are starting to make progress now in clearing our basement.

There is a lot of mold down there and yuck.

The Dominant One points out the the energies down there with twanks
of lower psychicism, from my point of view. I observe she speaks a lot about
the dark forces in the basement.

She speaks about the Garden the same way, as if it is wounded.

I feel hurt that she does not see the beauty.

I am in fear I cannot get the housemate I need/the house meets for balance
with the energies that are up here.

The Housemate Process definitely brings up stuff for me.
I thought I had one likely candidate yesterday;

Here was here initial note of inquiry preceded by
my response to her:

This sounds like a good match, Allison.

I am aware of the work of the International Rescue Mission at Crawford High School.

This is a lovely room for someone into minimal.

We have 1/3 acre within walking distance of SDSU. There is also a trolley there.

Do you have a car?

Where is your new job?

You could come over Wednesday.

I am looking for someone who will either pay the higher amount, allowing us to hire a good garden person,
or who is willing to get into the soil literally.

Please make sure you have reviewed this blog here:

http://curezone.com/blogs/fm.asp?i=1236154


Look forward to meeting you!
What is your Birthday????


Leslie
Your Enchanted Gardener


On Aug 12, 2008, at 11:41 PM, Allison Rhodes wrote:

Hello!

I would love to have this room! I have had been meeting a lot of people who have worked in community gardens and I would really like to know more about organic farming. This weekend I was just talking with some students from Crawford High School who were doing a garden internship through the International Rescue Committee, and it made me realize I really should learn a lot more about it. I am a vegetarian, love to cook, and have some good vegi cookbooks, love farmer's markets, and always try to live minimally.

I just graduated from ... old female, and need to move so that I am closer to my new job teaching English as a Second Language to refugees who have been resettled in San Diego by ....

I will call you tomorrow to get more information. It would be great to hear back as soon as possible because I will be traveling to New Zealand and Australia this Saturday afternoon and won't be back til the beginning of September. It would be nice to figure out any paperwork and payments before I go. Thank you for your time. And hopefully I'll meet you soon. Thanks!

Sincerely,
she signed here...


We spoke for about twenty minutes and then made an appointment...for yesterday
around five. She called about four to tell me she had decided to move in with a girlfriend.
She never came over.

That is the kind of experience I frequently have with the New Housemate Search.
I find it can feel devastating...
expecially now...

When,

1. I am working to complete a financial document from the past
that is bringing up stuff...

2. I am feeling the pressure of the housemate search.

3. My energies want to be doing cleanup in my room.

4. In the Wings is a need to give energy to my co-owner who has been
waiting for me to take on refinancing.

5. I am saddened by the overgrown garden. I have spent little time there myself.

6. There are a ton of clearing issues here around the house...
that feel like they are blocking...

7. I feel I do not time for hardly any of this.

---

8. Deadline upcoming: I have to get photos in for Pacific Sympoisum inside front cover.

ad who will sponsor in advance????

TID
Golden Flower
Health Concerns


We are definitely on a new wavelength of cleaning the basement
that is full of intense stagnant energies, a compilation of years of neglect
and stuffing.

A few days ago, I made the comment that the kitchen was so clean,
with the influence of some new enegies and housemates, that I hadn' seen
a Cockaroach in so long, I forgot we had them once.

This early morning, following the House Meeting...
and the stirring of energies in the basement....
there was a big Cockroach in the bathtub.

I am going to upload a photo now
and then get more rest,
and then get on to more work on the finance report.

I am going to put more positive energy into
housemate search...

and likely write a note of clearing to the Dominant One,
in spite of her controlling statement, that we will Clean after
the Work is done. The Clearing for me, is part of the Work.

7:49 AM


RELATED BLOG:

Center for Nonviolent Communication
and Marshall Rosenberg's Schedule.

I see he is in Santa Barbara in September 2008
toward the end of the month.

http://www.cnvc.org/







 

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