Stressing Out by YourEnchantedGardener .....

Focus...make progress...do not interact with too much more stuff today.

Date:   8/4/2008 11:33:13 AM ( 16 y ago)

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10:22 PM

1/1/08-1/31/08




12-1-07-12-31-07

Done 10:14 PM
G + Mgr updated...
procedures straigened.

Stuff up around house...
Time spent with Danielle...hours...
Much, much, more...

11-1/07-11/30/07

Oh I see, in doing this.
I wasn't doing my Job here....
to keep the Dream growing..for her...

The Quicken starts to automatically download with this month.
Maybe I am over the hump...

I see where it is essential to slow down each month
and do the records, or have someone else do them.
This after the fact work is too tedious.

Also...compassion...the quicken was not working then
with these transactions I am putting in....!!!


3:44 PM

Holy Smoke!
9-29-07[ 10-31-07
Looking at some of the purchases for the Pacific Symposium 07.
Puts me in touch with the Broken Dream of the newest housemate.
A lot of spiritual energy went into that one for the planting
of TCM in American Soil.....
Where did I go wrong with that onE????

Did I not feed it enough????
She never committed to PCOM.
We even planted her plant....

I do not know where I am going to summon the energy to plant again
with that Seed Dream.

Trips....
to Taoist Sanctuary
Trips to City Farmer Nursery...

Some things you must let go.
Never grounded here....
Going to another campus in LA.

Another Dream I want to Yank out.
To debilitating.

and then...build another structure????
issues....with city.
major Kitchen person...




1:28 PM

O.K. I adjusted the Universal Access ZOOM feature
so it is not jumping all over the screen....just edges....
Under System Preferences...

Thank you,
Quicken Community Support....

1:20 PM

Looking on the web for a solution to
the Register being too small to read Comforable!:

ust used this feature... it works well

go to system pref....univ.access... turn on Zoom...then options... move max zoom slider incrementally ...


also try this resolution...

1280 x 1024


http://www.quickencommunity.com/webx/.efd6302


I am going to attempt this one:




12:56 PM

Squirming.
I can't see the screen without stress.
The Quicken is too small!!!
When I switch the resolution I can't see the scroll bar.
When I put on my close up glasses found,
I am putting stress on my eyes and head.
The old Quicken did not have this problem.
When I use the Control and Mouse to enlarge the screen jumps
all over the place. It is uncomforable.
I do not have a solution that is not stressful.



11:54 AM

And so went the morning.
Just figured out how to do a workaround
saving a Report for Internet in and out
expense to a PDF in documents.
This is the only way I can get it to print
fully.

Tired. Discouraged.

No energy to take care of Psychol mess.
Adjusting to Imac over old Quicken is time consuming.
Pages does not work the way I had this set up
before. Hard to access organization that took
a lot of time in FINANCIAL MANAGEMENT JOURNAL FILE.

Where is the notebook that I had organized
the last time I was in focus on this?


Glancing at Notebooks.
Why did I hold on to some many notebooks
offering records of past events and achievements.

I have been going UP UP
with no cleanout of weeds and let go.

Reminds me of Mrs. Havisham
in GREAT EXPECTATIONS

Charles Dickens is that you
Checking in?

Oh...I see...I have not been using any of my Spirit Guides
for writing of late....they are all sitting idle when I do this.

Where are the Spirit Guides from this kind of work?
Angels holding off intrustions...
while I learn what I need to learn about this.
Back to 9/1-9/28 07
9:15 AM
August 4, 08

Just finished a couple things
that I had to do before taking on a
day of Sales Tax/ 2007 Record Keeping.

I started going through a bank statment
after reading something from the Bible.
It opened to a page from Jesus about the
Truth shall make you free.

We are in the week following
the Solar Eclipse.

This is a week of Transfiguration
and things ending, dying, and new seeds planted.

Yesterday was a horrific day for me.
I did not speak my piece at dinner.

I allowed an unsettled calm to reign.

There was a very uncomfortable note on the board
that still stood.

One housemate that I had worked very hard to bring in
all the way from New Jersey, let it be known she was moving
up to LA after a few months living here.
I had a premonition that this would happen.

I am in no condition to being seeking another housemate.
I am in no condition in this moment to take on the toxic nature
of relations at the house.

I feel the Angel of Death at my door.

I went out to put a letter in the mailbox walking around
the house out my back door. Then I realized I had left
a portion of the mail out of the envelope so I went out
into the hallway.

The board is cleared of that note that was so upsetting to me,
but I have no idea who cleared it. I am not sure if it was the person
who I asked to erase it.

It is an incredible disparity between the email I wrote this morning
to Scott W, making a proposal for the an upcoming event and the
toxic load I am feeling at home.

It is in my face.

I am not sure I want to continue this,
to continue living here.

I am in that state of mind this morning.

There is still momentum and resolve to clear the Basement.

This are foundation issues coming up now.

I better get on with the day's work.

Follow UP later:
How do I read AT to hear how many minutes
I have used???? I see something about a password...
I do not remember setting up a password.

Yesterday, at the FM, I was selling Green Beans for Joe.
We sold out. It felt good to do something this mundane
for about 90 minutes. I sold them out. It felt good to
interact with the people and be kind to them. They
appreciate the personal touch. I ask there name.
I show them other foods, even if they do not need them
this week. I made a number of friends for Joe.

I bagged up the last remaining Green Beans.
I thought I would take one myself, but these were
also grabbed up by the customers. There were a lot
of Green Beans.

I did not put any aside for myself.
It was so nice to do a few good things
for others yesterday at the FM.

I printed up a photo I had promised for David and his lady.
They liked that. Barry thought the photo was good.

I emailed Barry the link to his web gallery so he can download those images.
He was complementary. I could use complements now.

It is a depleting time.

Maybe some gardening today?

Do the 9-1-07- 9/30/07
statement, Leslie, thank you,

9:11 AM

Let's see how long this will take.

Look at Quicken....any in there already for that period...???

Some mind entraining music?
Medicine Buddha?

Whole Being Weekend?

Dark night of the Soul.







 

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