Day 4/14 by Disturbance Blog entry

Blog: Insane Fasting - Juice fasting for the 4th time - 14 days
by Disturbance

Day 4/14

Tired.
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Date: 12/11/2008 5:15:07 AM ( 16 y ) ... viewed 2404 times

Today I'm tired. It was already hard to climb up escalators in the metro (my only regular form of exercise at the time being), and now, by noon, I feel flogged out. The quality of sleep wasn't that good last night, and thinking about it now I haven't slept too well in quite a few nights.
Like said I've been sleeping without a pillow for about three months now and am loving it, and I've tried to be in bed by 10pm on weekdays as my wake-up time, 6.30am, can't be fiddled with. I know I should probably get 9 hours of sleep a night, but can't see a solution to getting that without sacrificing an hour of important food-preparing or social time in the evening.
I'm trying to find a way to familiarise myself with sleeping on a hard surface now, but am lacking ideas. I currently host a double bed courtesy of a friend of a friend who's on a peace-keeping mission at the moment, so the bed is there only temporarily. However due to my basement area having been attacked by a pyromaniac a month ago I have no storage area, so the bed stays. But maybe I could put a board on top of the mattress and set the sheet and duvets on top of that, how would that sound? Anyone with any tips where to find such a board, or ideas what else than crudely sleeping on the floor by the bed, please let me hear from you.
Eventually my ideal would be sleeping on a Japanese style low bunk.

I didn't finish all of yesterday's tomato juice, and had the rest of the clementine juice only at home. I also had a bit of prune juice which now churns in my guts. I've had a lot of churning the last two days, so today I'll have to have an enema.

Today's sauna day, too, like every Thursday. I'll get to do some good body brushing, the brush is maybe the best invention ever! I only wish I knew someone, anyone, with a bath tub to soak myself and epsom salts in!

Today I took 0,75l of tomato juice and 0,5l of clementine juice along to work. Reading the Hippocrates Health Institute magazine posted to me all the way to Finland. Trying not to concentrate on too many things at the same time (or at all today) to preserve energy to focus.

Yesterday I managed only 4x0,7l bottles of water at work, and a glass of pasteurised orange juice at nan's to make her feel better about me not eating.
Today it's been hard to get my water down, too. However, yesterday and today have been somewhat insightful - just before finishing work yesterday I just had to pour out and type down a whole load of honest confessions about myself to myself.
Personally I've come to feel eating is an unwelcome distraction, at least to myself. As time-consuming as fasting with all its preparations are I feel eating is even worse, it totally makes me lose the plot for a while.

Besides I notice that in the morning when I wake up, even after only four days of fasting, I look perfectly slim and healthy and just awesome, but after no matter how little raw eating I always bloat. By the end of the day there's not much left of my flat tummy, the bulge's there to drive me mad. Even while fasting I seem to bulge by the end of the day. What oh what to do?! Could this be some sort an allergic reaction? Intolerance? Simply too much consuming anything (since even plain water, eventually, fills my guts)? I'm totally lost at this one point.
I've heard of a so-called "antioxidant clinic" in Helsinki, and apparently they use some method to discover some intolerances. I haven't looked into this as of yet, so any knowledge you've got, please feel free to share! I am not fat, especially in the morning. I need to find out what's preventing me from staying at my peak.

Slight dizziness and light-headedness going on. Never had this before on any other fast. Restless foot, too, after consuming 3 bottles of water, 1/3 of my tomato juice, and 7/8 of the clementine juice.

Also random thoughts on food yesterday and today. Considering cutting the fast short, depending on whether this good feeling will keep improving. I know a week's fast would be just as good, but after that it's more about me gaining control of my mind to be able to control my portion sizes and stick to the living foods' diet. That's the most important part. Right now, four days into restraining from solids, I know by the nature of my cravings I'm not ready to return to eating. I'm out of control and unwilling, yesterday I even thought for a split-second about picking up a french frie off the street. Hilarious, in a judgmental way.

As another harsh decision I will now give up much of my boozy ways. I hate the way my friends and complete strangers become while drunk (although I don't agree with how Finns are sober, either), and I want to become more of an example of retaining sanity at all hours and days of the week by dropping most alcohol out of my weekend routines, and at times when consumed keeping the amount to a bare minimum. Financial reasons back me up nicely with this one, as well. But I am being realistic here: I will not quit entirely. Little by little, like said.