I finally get it

Date:   6/10/2007 1:32:16 PM ( 17 y ago)

My mind is jumping around today as I wrap this part of my journey up. I woke up and thought of breaking my fast today. Not because I'm hungry. I'm not even slightly hungry. But Wednesday would be the day of eating again (day 31) and that concerns me. I think it would better to break during a weekend so I can see how my body responds to food and I can be nearby a toilet. I've read that some people experience the need to immediately eliminate after they eat solid food. There is no privacy where I work and wouldn't want any tummy troubles to happen there!  So I might break it next weekend or Friday night. I plan on just eating fruit the first two days or more. Watermelon, papaya, kiwi, etc. Very water based fruit to start. Then I can head for my veggies, which I am truly looking forward to. Fuhrman is now my game plan for the way I will continue to eat in order to stabalize my weight and then start losing again.

A couple weeks ago I was thinking of pressing on doing 40 or maybe even 50 days. But that was a weight loss decision and not a health decision. I doubt I'll lose much more weight then have so far and I know I have the dicipline to eat correctly after this fast. It's given me the commitment and confidence I need to shed this last 25-30 lbs. My goal weight is 130 or 125. I know I'll feel great at even at 137. Even though I am petite and small boned I've always been able to carry a little more weight on this curvy body.

I feel like I finally get it. The weight loss is great but of course everyone is going to lose weight when they stop eating solids. It's the aftermath that's so important. I was reading this link to someone's hero, a "hall of famer" as she put it. The woman lost 54 lbs in 43 days or something like that on a water fast. She cheated occassionally with a meatball, a slice of cheesecake and once with turkey and mashed potatoes. The hall of famer was so proud of herself because it was only about, Look how much weight I lost! And I cheated and I didn't exercise!  I just couldn't figure out why she would be someone's weight loss hero.  What did this person learn? She was about as inspirational as a bulimic saying, Look! I can eat all this food and throw it up and I don't gain weight! That's how I felt about it anyway. There are all sorts of ways we can abuse our bodies and I felt this was a prime example of one of those people. Ausjulie and Dazzle are people who I can feel proud to look up to because of their commitment to health after they have fasted. I really hope to have the same kind of sucess.

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