...just kidding

Date:   11/10/2006 9:32:20 PM ( 18 y ago)

nope this is definately not my last day. actually, after today i feel like i could do this for however long i want. my will power is strong as iron!! although, admittedly, i haven't had very many temptations. but i'm sure they will come.

and i haven't really felt hungry lately. i had a few pangs today, but they came and went very quickly. i do nostagically think about food though (ha, nostagically... it's been 4 days!). like i'll drive by restaurants, etc and just think about how i have to add it to my list of foods to eat once i'm done with this thing. but it's not like i want to break my fast and eat it right then, which i guess is a good sign. i keep having mini panic attacks though where i have to think back over the past few hours to make sure i didn't accidentally eat anything. that's probably on the weird side, but i'm so used to eating! hopefully in the next few days i'll get used to this not-eating stuff.

one hard part about today was that i usually go grocery shopping for the week on friday evenings after i get off work. but tonight... straight home i went. i'm actually over it now, but it was that darned nostalgia. :)

overall, i haven't really felt much different that I normally do. a lot of people go on and on about this enlightened feeling, or a heightened sense of smell or whatever, but i'm not feelin it. i'm a little disappointed, to say the least. i want to smell things from 100 yds away and feel like i'm walking on air. :) maybe that will come soon.

aaaand my tounge is still coated. it's so gross. i want gum so bad but i know that's just adding more toxins in. i feel like my saliva has thickened about 3 times over. and i don't know if i'm reading too much into little aches and pains, but yesterday morning in class my right shoulder started to ache pretty badly, and today on the way home from work my left temple all of a sudden hurt pretty bad. i wouldn't think twice about these types of things normally, but i keep hoping that they're the toxins leaving me!!

wow... so i just typed a novel. hope at least one person enjoyed reading this!

todays stats so far:
SW: check
BM: 2
lemonade: about 4 cups, working on the last two right now
clothes are still fitting tight... hmmm... :(

 

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