Day 18

Date:   9/28/2006 8:27:17 PM ( 18 y ago)

So here I sit at day 18. Into uncharted territory, as my longest to now was 17 days.

I haven't done a swf since 3 nights ago, but I've still been having plenty of elimination going on. I only drink 1 senna/gingko tea at the start of my work shift and even today I had a decent amount of mucus and that silt kind of stuff come out. I drive around all day at work, and usually stop at McD's when I have to use a washroom. I haven't eaten there in 3 years, but I stop there twice a day at work! It's weird enough seeing people mowing down on that crap when I'm eating, but two and a half weeks into a fast I can't help but be seriously repulsed! Man I used to eat there 3 times a day when I was a teenager, so I'm not trying to say I'm better than anyone, it's just disgusting, what's "normal" to eat.

I had to challenge an apprenticeship exam today. It's from material I was studying in college 8 years ago, and I did minimal studying the past few weeks. Up to about a half hour before the test I was having a hard time concentrating, partly because it's boring, partly because I'm becoming less and less interested in worldly matters. So I sat and meditated for about 20 minutes, just trying to clear my head of anything. The result: I was in the zone!! Finished the test in half the allotted time and even though I don't know my mark, they told me I passed, which is at least 70%. Things were just coming back to me that have been long buried in the recesses of my mind.

My experience right now is definitely elevating. Music is sounding better, people seem to be friendlier, and I can enjoy just closing my eyes and swimming through my thoughts, emotions, and memories.

I think I'm going to stop at 31 days, not because I don't think I could go longer, but I go on vacation on what would be day 39, and I won't have a juicer. I'm also planning on spending a lot of time picking mushrooms and I think it'd be better to eat raw for a week before getting into "regular" food, instead of straight off the fast. Then I'll do a 40 day-er in the spring or fall of next year.

Ciao for now.

Update: It's 9:15 now. Since I got home from work and drank a veggie juice I've been to the bathroom 4 times. I know anyone reading my blog is sick to death of hearing this, but there's still so much coming out. I had to write down now that in the movement I just had, there was way more mucus than silt, and a lot of it was blood red and bigger and longer than usual. I've been drinking beet juice everyday, and the mucus hasn't yet looked like that.

I'm seriously in a state of disbelief right now; in a sick way I wish I had made every bm in the past 2 weeks into a bucket and let the moisture evaporate out to see how much useless crap was putrefying inside me!!

Good night!

 

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