3 weeks of sobriety so far! 2nd time I made it this long in 10 years!

Date:   8/21/2006 6:25:46 AM ( 18 y ago)

I have made it 3 weeks now and it's such a relief to have made it this far. I have a lot less stress right now because I don't have to focus so much on school and at work we have been slow so I am not working much. I think by eliminating as much stress as possible, it has really helped me to make it this long. It took me 1 month to mow my grass, but I did it today. I have always mowed the grass while drinking beer to cool me down and they went together so well for a long time. I though of alcohol right before I started mowing, but of course after a while the desire left me. This is great! I have lived a normal life for 3 weeks now. Things are starting to look better. I have a doctors appointment Thursday, but no matter what comes from it, I am going to try not to worry about it and just continue to do the things that have helped me so far.

I have really started to notice some of the effects alcohol has had on my body. I can tell the muscles in my legs are somewhat deteriorated compared to just a few years ago. It doesn't help that I sit a lot at my job and in front of the computer also. I can't wait until I get into an exercise program which I plan on doing later on. It's nice to be sober for so long but I have truly had a few hard times where I almost wanted to die. I know that since I have gone this long, I won't really have to worry about detoxing but rather temptations. It is still one of the first things on my mind everyday. I even dream of drinking alcohol a lot now.

I know everything will get better now as long as I continue choosing not to drink. It is a sickness/disease that can bring anyone down. I found that out for myself but I am glad I have realized it this early instead of letting it get any worse than it already is. Too bad my rehab sessions haven't started yet and I'm sure most of the people there are going to be surprised that I have gone this long before I start my first session. I do look forward on sharing my few weeks of sobriety with everyone there when it does start. I still haven't even thought about going to AA and know I probably wont. It's for some people, but I am pretty sure its not for me still.

This is the morning of my 22nd day of sobriety and it feels great!!!


 

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