I haven't been sober for 8 days more than 4 times in the last 10 years!

Date:   8/8/2006 2:44:34 AM ( 18 y ago)

I have been sober for 8 days. I haven't been sober for this long more than 4 times in 10 years. I know I am on the right track and hope I can find more strength each day to fight this and win. I started getting very uncomfortable tonight at everything around me. Everything was irritating me. The bugs that were falling from the ceiling at Sonic while we were having ice cream, my daughter running around everywhere, even my girlfriend's voice was just making me very irritated. I had to go sit in the car by myself for the last 5 minutes that we were there. It helped too. I had that time to think about what was happening. My body was detoxing and telling me that it was bleeding for alcohol. I hated the feeling and I know it may get worse before it gets better.

I have been eating a lot of salads lately. I think the juice fast I did in May-June really made my body aware of how important vegetables are. I almost get sick when I eat high fat foods now with lots of grease in them. I think that if someone wanted to do a transition from meat to veggie diet, they should consider a juice fast. I can't wait until I go on another one. I am almost ready again for another one that will probably last a few days or so.

I am going to a alcohol treatment facility in the next few days and see if I can do some outpatient classes. I know when I left there a few years ago I had no intention on quitting at all. It will be nice to go back and apply the things I learned and will learn from the classes. I liked them better than any AA meeting because there was professionals and not people that have been in prison all their life conducting the meetings. I doubt I ever go to another AA meeting in my life. Maybe just to tell my story to someone that actually wants the help and are actually trying to make the program work. Until then, I'll work on this myself. If I get through this it will be a huge leap in my life and I don't think anything can ever hold me back again. We shall see?

 

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