Deciding From A Point Of Balance

Date:   12/21/2006 6:53:20 AM ( 18 y ago)

Greetings...

Yesterday, from about 3 pm on, was an extremely challenging time for me.  I wanted so bad to stop the cleanse and just eat.  I am not sure where these overwhelming feelings were coming from, but it was a real battle to suppress them.  The day was no different from any of the other days so far, in that I was drinking the same number of lemonades and the same amount of water.  I ended up drinking one additional lemonade yesterday to help quell the intense urge to eat and drank the peppermint tea as well.  I have decided that I like the tea after all.  Finally about 9 pm, I was able to find my balance once again and the determination to press on.  I had three extremely vivid dreams last night where I was in different environments with lots of delicious food and indulged myself, only to realize in the dream that I had broken my cleanse.  It was really quite bizarre.  The only normalcy yesterday was the 3 am wakeup call from the cayenne and smooth move.  This morning I felt refreshed and fine, but yesterday was a real battle.  On a side note, I have nailed down how I will do the SWF from here on out.  Two teaspoons of sea salt with 8 ounces of water, and the other 24 ounces on the side.  I can get the 8 ounces down in about three gulps, with a chaser of water between each gulp, and then finish off the remaining 16 ounces.  It is so much easier to get the whole quart down this way and I am still having numerous eliminations in the morning.

The decision I made yesterday to stick to the cleanse and not give in to my intense urges will have a deep impact on me for the remainder of this cleanse and future cleanses.  Some choices touch us to our very cores, awakening poignant feelings within us.  Instead of relying solely on my urges, I somehow empowered myself to come to a life-affirming and balanced conclusion.  As I continue my quest of regaining my balance, I am slowly moving towards a state of mind in which I can make decisions that honor every aspect of myself and my body. 

Peace and happiness

Seunim


 

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