Dealing with my first day of the MC and the fears surrounding it.

Date:   6/11/2006 10:35:29 AM ( 18 y ago)

It's 11:20am on a lazy Sunday morning and it's also my first day of 40 of my MC. I've already had one lemonade (slept in :) and I think a bit of fear is starting to creep in. Granted, the idea of being on a cleanse for 40 days - as an idea - is great. I mean, it's pretty amazing (in my mind) to think that I have the ability somewhere inside me to just set aside everything and give food the finger and instead focus on cleansing and healing. But damn, just sitting here thinking about today and the food I won't be eating is causing me to freak out and second guess what I'm doing before I've even started.

I've read everything in the forums for months and have been so inspired by the successes of everyone that I know this is the right thing for me. I guess the only way to do this is to take it one moment and one lemonade at a time, reassuring myself that it's not supposed to be easy. Change doesn't come without a little struggle.



 

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