Extremely Fast Fast by RawGirl .....

Ambushed by anger, my inner saboteur short-circuits my juice fast. Unmoved, I pretend nothing happened, and keep juicing away. Meanwhile, I need a system to harmlessly redirect anger when it appears, so it will DIS-appear from my thighs. Lots of anger has been riding my thighs for years, and THAT is OVER! AHO!

Date:   6/24/2006 6:42:23 PM ( 18 y ago)

Lots of green juicing and massive organization going on here. Are these things related? I am really REALLY cranky today because I am cleaning my office, which is my least favorite and most procrastinated thing to do. It will take weeks to do it right ... filing and sorting papers. Also, I made my green juice today VERY green which means lots of kale, parsley and dandelion greens, and it is INTENSE! So it must be an intense day! Yikes! The good news is that life is beautiful and I have been very successfully fasting on green juice, using this basic recipe (all organic):

- cucumbers
- celery
- parsley
- leafy greens (kale or dandelion)
- lemons
- ginger root

Except last night I blew it because I got very angry at someone’s passive aggressive energy. They looked me in the eye and lied. I really have a hard time with liars because it puts me in a judgmental mode. (“You freakin’ liar!”). Could it be that this person was NOT lying? This seems unlikely, but I will never know. Meanwhile, my triggers got set off and I lost my cool and as that I have YET to master my emotions, was unable to deal with this rage that arose without my normal coping strategy --- go eat something and push down the bad feelings. So, I ate ice cream --- right in the middle of my 9th day of juice fasting. What a drag!

Now the anger transferred to myself and I'm STILL angry, Grrrrrrrrrrr!

This important lesson it showed me I must right now develop a strategy and plan and method to deal with the next anger wave, and find a way to ride that wave without going off my fast. My plan is to do some of these things: get out of the house and walk, get in my car and scream, speak my angry feelings into a tape recorder, and journal. Or all of the above! Anything but EAT when I other than want to eat just because I am angry and that is my habit: eat when angry to ensure I am a nice girl. Well, hell with that! If I have to be an angry bitch to be skinny, I’m going to go for it and experience that for a while! Done enough time as the mellow fat girl, thank you very much!

Anyway, I will pretend that my body didn’t notice the cheat session, and got RIGHT back on the horse. I make vast quantities of green juice and chug away.

The idea is to get results FAST. So this is a FAST FAST. My emotions are coming up fast, too, and today I want to (1) jump out of my skin; (2) scream; (3) take a vacation from my life; (4) run away; (5) go see 3 matinees in a row in a dark theatre. Is this the SAD diet yelling at me or what? The popcorn smell would be a problem, however, unless I brought my green juice in with me and sucked on it continuously. Green juice is best served: ice cold, with additional ice, lots of lemon, diluted with additional fresh water, and sucked through a straw. This avoids the green moustache, plus it tastes better. Then it is positively THE BEST THING EVER! I am fasting for beauty. Again, this is a FAST FAST, because it is a beauty emergency. I need to be positively, radiantly beautiful in less than 4 weeks, when I will see a certain someone again who definitely rings my chimes. And then I’m going to Maui a few days later for ten days. I have to go. I have to get a fix of that tropical paradise, or I am useless. This is under the category of basic maintenance of this body and is other than optional.

So, a fast fast is the order of the day. Green juice fasting is the fastest way I know to get fast results, and I mean how to look a heckuva lot better in 4 weeks than I do today, on every level.

I plan to fast on green juice the entire summer ---- the universe has some major events going on and I need to be fully calibrated to be in co-resonance with all the goings-on. Gotta stay juicy!

Eye of the tiger time over here. Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrwwwwwwwwwwwllllllllllllllllllllllll!!!!




 

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