My long story: how I became interested in natural healing therapies, and how I developed my skin conditions (bumps and psoriasis).

Date:   5/3/2006 9:40:11 PM ( 18 y ago)

Hello! Thanks for reading my blog. Hope you are having an excellent day!

Now some background info that will help you understand who I am and why I am doing this fast. It is a lot about me, and it is also the first time I ever put my story in writing and in public. I am doing it both for myself, to help sort out my feelings about myself, and for other people who might relate to my story. This is a very detailed and intimate story, and it is long, because I want to bring to light all the feelings that have been sort of covered up as I have never really told anyone the whole story.

I am 21 and a college student, majoring in Economics. I grew up in an Eastern European country and came to the US in 2004 for college.

Since about 12 years old I've been interested in natural therapies/alternative medicine, and have been reading a lot on the body's power to heal itself. I still have the first book I read on the subject--a book on raw food as the ideal diet, by an unknown author, but extremely well written. I can still picture myself even after 9 years in the book store, picking it up and reading it :) It was the beginning of what will probably be a lifetime journey of learning and discovery.

So over the course of 9 years I have acumulated quite a lot of knowledge about the many natural therapies/prevention methods/healthy living methods (raw diets, positive thinking, fasting, vitamins&minerals, urinotherapy, juicing, etc etc.) I have also read a lot about human physiology, and am especially interested in hormones and the way their delicate balance affects the human body.

I also developed a strong aversion to doctors (except surgeons..) and drugs. I believe, based on extensive reading (especially Dr. Mercola's articles), that drugs are only a method to cover up the effects of a certain disequilibrium in the body, and that as long as this cause is not corrected, the effects will continue to manifest regardless of the amount of drugs given to the person. I always use an analogy I found in that first natural healing book I read at 12 and that has stuck in my mind: being sick is like being in a bathtub and drowning because the faucet is on and water keeps pouring into the bathtub, and you are managing to keep your head above the water by using a teaspoon to throw water out. As long as you don't turn the faucet off, the water level will get higher and higher until you are no longer able to keep your nose above it by using your spoon. The spoon is the drugs, and the faucet is the cause that needs to be corrected.

I don't often discuss what I know with others, except with my family, because in our current society and culture (especially in my age group) people are reluctant to learn about these kinds of things and prefer to think of doctors as magicians able to cure anything. So, I am greateful for the internet, and for curezone!

Now, the reason why I became interested in natural healing at such a young age was that I have always had a minor skin condition: small bumps on my upper arms and on my thighs, as well as some on my face. My mother tells me I was not born with them, and that they appeared when I was 6-9 months old. I can only think that they were caused by either vaccinations, or an allergy to a certain food.

I still have those bumps, and even though they are not very visible (except on my thighs), they can be felt and because of that they caused me a lot of grief, especially when I was younger and used to cry because my skin was not "normal" like other kids'. I went to a few doctors between the ages of 8 and 12, but they were not able to either identify the cause of the bumps or to tell me how to cure them. That was pretty much my only experience with the "medical establishment", other than the annual tonsillitis I used to get in the winter between the ages of 6 and 11. My mother would take me to the family doctor, a very nice lady who was also a family friend. She would give me antibiotics and something for the fever. When I was 9 or 10 I read an article about how fever is the body's natural mechanism of killing germs, and ever since then I refused to take anything for fever during those tonsillitis bouts. Fortunately, at around 12 years old I stopped having them.

Back to psoriasis. A few months ago I noticed that the mild dandruff I have had for a few years now was beginning to get worse. And I realized that I had psoriasis--the same condition that my father developed 10 years ago, a condition that often runs in the family (although my dad's mom, my grandma, doesn't know any family member with psoriasis). I now realize that my psoriasis has been developing for at least 5 years. My skin has always been a bit dry, and I attributed it to the same unknown condition that caused the bumps (sorry I don't have a more scientific name for them, but like I said no doctor was able to diagnose them). I started noticing that for a few years now during winter my hands would get really dry, but I never thought much of it and assumed it was all due to my "weird" skin condition.

During that time I watched my dear father's psoriasis get worse and worse every year. It started with dandruff and slowly extended to his elbows, knees, and back. I researched a lot on alternative psoriasis therapies, but never managed to convince him that he might be healed. All the doctors he talked to told him that it's a "genetic" condition triggered by stress (it was indeed triggered by a stressful event in his life), and that it CANNOT be healed, only kept under control. I did manage to convince him to reduce his meat consumption and eat more raw vegetables. 2-3 years ago I read about a woman who fasted 14 days and healed her psoriasis. I remember being frustrated because even after reading this testimony, my dad would still not try it, even though he kept saying he would do anything to heal. I also remember having quite a few heated arguments with him about psoriasis--I kept insisting that it can be healed if only he would try some of these natural therapies, and he kept insisting that all those "excellent" doctors told him what he eats doesn't make any difference and except PUVA, skin lotions, and certain drugs (highly toxic ones!) there is nothing he could do.

If only those doctors knew how many lives they ruin with those few sentences, robbing people of their hope and optimism, which are often the very things that can help them heal themselves...I am still working on releasing the negative energy I developed towards them, because I still hold them responsible for my dad losing any hope of ever curing himself of psoriasis. One's mindset makes such a ahuge difference with this disease, that although I realise my father could have chosen to not believe the doctors and keep his hope up, he had no logical reason not to believe "well-educated and well-informed doctors". My father is a software engineer, thus a very logical person, and to him my suggestion that the doctors are wrong and that he might indeed heal himself is completely illogical.

I even remember thinking, after those heated arguments with my dad, wishing I too had psoriasis, just so I could show him that it COULD be healed and that those doctors were wrong. (These thoughts, in retrospect, proved to be quite ironic because they came true, and they were actually true even then when I was thinking them, although I didn't know it because my psoriasis was only starting to manifest.)

It was devastating to me emotionally to witness the quiet desperation of my dad. Even as I am writing this, tears stream on my face. He is a good and sensitive man, and is suffering terribly because of this disease.

I now realize that my dry hands during winter were the first sign of psoriasis developing. Now that the signs are a bit more obvious (the dandruff has gotten worse, and has the obvious characteristics of psoriasis), my hands got much drier this winter than in the previous 4-5 years.

End of part 1...to be continued in another post (part 2)



 

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