:::sigh:::

Date:   4/8/2006 9:42:26 PM ( 18 y ago)

ew. the first day after a cheat always feels so gross. i feel swollen and bloated. i really don't want to get out of bed at all. this is the second day like this that i'm having this week: enough of this.
i have to go on autopilot.
i'm fasting until my birthday. that's 2668 hours. or until i achieve my goal weight. no more fooling around. no more wasting time. no more delaying. i don't care how hard some hours may be, it will pay off to stick this out.
i have to remember how awful i feel right now and not get lost in a moment of feeling thin or feeling hungry or feeling like it's fine to cheat once in a while. i want to finish and then eat regularly and healthily and not go back and forth between extremes anymore.
i have to do this for myself.

 

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