two weeks yah hoo!

Date:   1/22/2006 12:11:15 PM ( 18 y ago)

i made it to two weeks. there is no chance that i am going to break this fast now. last night i took my younger son and friend to hamburger place, the fries looked good and so did the hamburger but i was just happy to watch the boys enjoy it and didnt want to participate at all. then i took them to the movies and the smell of popcorn was pretty awesome but again didnt want any of it. i have been craving a really yummy asian noodle soup lately but even that is gone. anyway i feel fantastic and i am so pleased the constant want for food has gone.

yesterday i had no juice again i only had herbal tea, lemonade adn veggie broth - which by the way i think is the best thing since sliced bread. if you had of told me a month ago that i could go 4 days with only 6 juices in total and veggie broth and lemonade i wouldve thought you were crazy. but i am not even hungry. every now and then my tummy makes a rumble but i just think oh that is my tummy rumbling. before i would go to the kitchen and stuff my face full of food to stop the rumbling. and i never really ever felt full. that is why i just kept eating. taht and pure boredom.

for the last three years i have been really inactive and not working. we moved over here to america and my diet went from ok to not so good. we started eatign out every week and then i started going out for lunch a few times a week. the portions in america are ridiculous. how can anyone eat that much food? and the cheese you guys put on everything oh my god....mmm dont get me started on the american diet.i also drank way too much - beer is my brew of choice which is full of calories. i have gotta say though i love a cold beer... but that is something i will have to reduce post fasting. but eatign and drinkin are only part of it. as with most people who are overweight i think that maybe there is always and underlyng cause. (professor julie speaking now ha!) mine was boredom becasue i wasnt livign my best life. we came to america to pursue my husbands career and to try to see as much of this country as we could. i had decided not to work for the first 12 months to settle the kids and just be carefree. my husband was never home so when he was i didnt want to have to work adn im not sure i couldve maintained a job without hime around with three kids (single parents hats off to you).also i just wanted life to be one big holiday (nad a lot of it was) i was more interested in travelling than anything else. it was all about having fun. this is not such a bad thing but it takes it toll. one year crept into two years and now nearly three years has passed and 20 pounds later. so this fast is about cleaning up my act and my body. i need to have more of a focus on what i want and need and not everything else. i have wanted to start nursing shcool for some time now and i know this is the time for me to move on with that dream. i want to work towards my own career and do soemthing that i know i will love. i cant go on any longer living the way i was, just waitign for time to pass until the next holiday and making sure everyone else is ok. all of this has been my own doing, i made these choices and i chose poorly when it came to me. but not anymore.

i just need to remember these clear thougts after this fast. the fast has really allowed me to focus on some issues. i havent learnt anything i didnt already know but it has just made it clearer. ohh listen to me a convert and i was such a skeptic. believe me if i can do this than anyone can. no one loves food more than me. no one can find more excuses in the world to overeat and under exercise. and here i am on day 14 walking each day and not even interested in food. wow...

 

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