sort of OK?

Date:   5/3/2006 9:14:28 AM ( 18 y ago)

My bridesmaids are not being nice. Feel bad for me. FEEL BAD FOR ME!!!

Just kidding.

But seriously, my future sister-in-law, who was my friend/roommate before I even met her brother, she's really acting hateful towards me. I don't know what's going on. She is very misguided, she has a pattern of running away from things, and she ran away from being fired from her job in NYC to New Orleans, to volunteer for Katrina. She did some good work, she screwed around and lived in a hostel for a while, and got in a large amount of debt. Her parents have bailed her out, and she's back in VT with all of us, living at her parents' place.

The girl has a history of volatility and toughness. She has come back with horrible acne and so much anger at herself (for what? I think she did a great thing, but she thinks she failed). She has started to cause wedding planning problems (like deciding she's missing the bachelorette party that she's supposed to be planning). She also says mean things about me to her brother, who got in a yelling match with her about it yesterday while he was at work.

He came to my office, took me out to dinner, then said "you have to work on this for me." I said I've reached out to her - I have nothing but compassion for her, I've told her I love her a million times. She says I care nothing for her except in terms of the wedding.

Is it fair for a maid of honor to blow into town and start accusing me of PLANNING MY WEDDING?? For F*ck's sake, it's 2.5 months away. I wanted her to help but if she weren't about to be my sister in law, she'd be out of the bridal party.

I practically had to BEG her to understand that I loved her yesterday on the phone. I was practically on my knees. She says she "doesn't feel the love." I have no idea what she's talking about. I am so sick and tired of kissing her ass. I really am. I'm going to have a compassionate heart and try to be non-defensive and ass-kissing to try to get past this. But after the wedding? See you later.

She bailed on the bachelorette party. She's supposed to be my maid of honor. She's being MEAN. mean mean mean mean mean mean mean. I can't believe it.

Anyway, I'm doing OK, I'm still in some pain from that run last week. But I'm going to do it again Thursday night, before i hang outwith my future sister in law. I'm hoping it will give me strength and calm and compassion.

Anyone who's reading this, please send me a prayer for a big open compassionate heart, that can over look the pain I'm feeling.


I worked out hard Monday, took yesterday off. Today I'm in for a long, low-intensity cardio session, tanning, etc. I'll tan tomorrow too. I'm not making much tan progress, by the way, cause I'm taking it really slowly. It's the best thing for my skin.

Eating - I've been pretty good, juiced yesterday morning. We had 2 drinks each out at dinner last night, but I haven't been drinking at home, which is probably good enough. If I can get through the next few months having a casual drink out at a bar or restaurant, that's fine. Just no wine/beer/booze in the house.

We don't go overboard whatsoever, by the way, it's just very regular to have a glass of wine (or 2) with dinner at my house. So cutting that out is going well. All those extra calories.

How am I doing? My clothes from last fall are positively swimming on me. I haven't tried on the new pair of size 10 jeans I bought yet. Soon. After another long run maybe I'll try them.


 

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