Just think for awhile

Date:   1/15/2006 6:59:19 PM ( 18 y ago)

*Silence*

"Who are you?"

'What? What do you mean, who am I? I am me. I am You.'
A scornful laugh echoed through the stillness. "No, you're not. Don't be ignorant."
'That hurts... I'm telling you the truth.'
"Liar."
She sighed deeply, a slight trembling made present. 'I'm trying..'

"Who are you?"

'I am me. I am Papillon.'

The voice boomed back menacingly, "NO! That is only a pet name, an adopted epithet from a sympathetic ex. Where are You? What have You done with You?"
'I am right here - '
"That, you are not. You have fallen so distressingly into an ocean of perplexity that You are but a carapace of your former self. Even your altered features, which you so despised in the past, cause you to turn away in objection with your timid glances into the mirror. Papillon, this Papillon - you strive so resolutely to fit into the beauty of that name, with the tenacious desire to be someone else, other than You. That name harnesses you."
'I'm trying...'
"Is that your only excuse? Is that your first line of defense? Go ahead and play deaf - I know that you can hear this. It's time to come to terms. It's time to face You. The arcane You, as you have created yourself to be. Do you want to heal?"
'I think so...'
"YOU CHOOSE TO KNOW. Do you want to heal??"
'I don't know -'
"LIAR!! DO YOU WANT TO HEAL?"
'NO! I'm AFRAID'
"OF WHAT??"
'Of failure...'

"Then at least stop, please stop, being so cruel to yourself..."



 

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