Day 5

Date:   9/18/2018 3:56:01 AM ( 6 y ago)

This is very early on Day 5 at 0134 am lol. I fell asleep early so I probably got 4 hours sleep. My legs were restless and it woke me up. I went upstairs and my kids didnt clean the kitchen last night so I had to clean up the food and load the dishwasher. I was not craving food but the old habits of taking a bite of something did go through my head. I did not eat anything however, and now the kitchen is clean.

I think today I am dealing with the psychology of my old habits. I am not hungry but the urge to snack is there. But this is coming up for me to deal with it so that I can have a better relationship with food after my fast. It is important not to give in to these urges.

I feel ok just tired but cant sleep due to restlessness. This will pass, as it did happen in my other fasts too. So I am going to take an anti inflammatory just to help my body calm. This is probably naughty but it will keep me on the fast.

I blog because it helps me to read it back later and it helps for my next fast to look back at what I went through so that I stay on it. Also feel free to comment as I do like suggestions.

My throat is a bit sore today and I am coughing just a bit. This is normal between day 4 and 7 because it is the time during the fast where he lungs are being cleansed. It is also the time when old wounds will hurt because they are being cleansed on a cellular basis.

My tongue is white and I still think taste is bad although I haven't had anything but water. I am brushing my teeth 2 or 3 times per day though. Its important to have a shower or bath as often as you want because your skin is also an organ that is detoxing so cleaning the skin is helpful to remove toxins during a fast. And mentally it is a good idea too.

So I am going to finish the tea that I shouldn't be drinking and go on the bike for a while and then back to bed. Mentally I am finding today kind of tough.

But unfortunately I am working through some emotional stuff that came up this week. During a fast you always want to avoid this kind of thing lol

I didnt predict that the man of my dreams from high school would reach out on facebook and profess his undying love!!! lol
He is a sweetie but he remembers the 125 pound blond blue eyed me who was modelling back then. I am still that person but in this bigger body where nobody wants to talk to you because all they see is your fat.

I was in love with this man for years but was too shy to say anything and so was he apparently.

Anyways today I took a selfie of me right now and sent it to him. I did this because I dont want to go through rejection like I do every day with friends.

To my surprise he answered and said simply, "you are beautiful". So now I am really messed up lol

ok stay tuned

 

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