Day 2 - Frump

Date:   10/13/2012 5:15:01 PM ( 12 y ago)

I have been trying to keep my mind occupied so that time will pass quickly these first few days. It was nice to have a friend call me, just to chat. And, I've gotten a little farther on my knitting project. Knitting is one of those activities, that just keeps me in a zen-sort of state. Since I missed Bikram, today... it was a welcome substitute.

I have been trying to pay attention to true hunger vs. pattern hunger. I notice at 6, I was ravenous - thought I would eat off the bottom of my shoe. But I just took a few breaths, and tried to focus - and it passed eventually. I think that's what I'm going to have to do over the next few days, is to remind myself that I don't *have* to eat at set times. It has also helped to read about fasting today - and when I do have these moments, I remember that fasting will help to turn my bodies energy INWARD towards healing. When I think of things in that perspective, it makes things easier.

I'm letting myself have herbal tea these first couple of days, just on and off. The peppermint seems to help with the nausea.

Had a difficult evening - a dear friend was kind of rude to me. When I got off the phone, I really thought - wow, have I become one of those women who 'becomes' their illness? I wondered if our friendship has become something to be tolerated rather enjoyed. That was a hard emotion to have late at night on your first day of a fast. But then I thought some more - if I can get through this, and it brings healing... then that would be amazing.

I'm tired now, and kind of frumpy - but, I am still hear and going strong. xo

 

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