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Date:   8/11/2010 10:22:04 AM ( 14 y ago)

Okay. Feel like crap. Two weeks too long.

Had tofu and dates for breakfast. Double-dose of Alka-Seltzer. 8½ weeks since I had a day off. I'm beat. I don't have to be unhappy and miserable. I don't have to fail. I just don't have to do it.

I'm going home for lunch to get a salad together. 5 miles down the road - easy.

Tomorrow and Friday are my first days off since June 14. I rock - let's face it. I did not miss one class and not one clinical. I did not miss work. I do rock. I was raw-vegan for 5 weeks of 8½. Now today, I'm back on.

I feel momentum building!!!

Ex-husband loves me again and wants me to be with him always. OMG.

Thank goodness, I'm back to church on the 22nd I hope and back to bible study on the 27th. Back to my 6-8 meetings a week beginning the night of the 17th. I'm almost there!

Almost where? Through the tunnel and back into the wide-open sky.

My home computer died last week. Just stopped booting up. *sigh*

Sister hung up on me on Sunday. *heavy sigh*

I don't have to fail, I don't have to be unhappy, I don't have to control anything or anyone - only me.

As my Southern Belle friend says, *le sigh*.

So, salad and vinegar water for lunch. Realllllly long and realllllly brisk walk after work. Hot, hot shower then gorgeous salad and then study. I will not fail. I am smart, I am committed, I am capable. I am in the homestretch and I will give it my all. ALL.

I can and will do this. I miss G*d. I miss who G*d made me to be. I miss the gifts I can give others by not being raw-vegan. Two weeks too long to check out of living on the edge of the universe.



 

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