I am just about out of patience today

Date:   8/15/2009 6:20:06 PM ( 15 y ago)

As I think about what is going on my life, I must stop and thank Allah. Ramadan will be on Saturday or maybe Friday and I must remember some things. As i am so busy writing and correcting these days, I must make time for people.

Today I went and visited someone I don't care for too much, but it is necessary during these days. I hear about many deaths and much sickness and I must be frightened also. Not of getting sick, as this is my destiny but of Allah's wrath.

I find that many are having tons of problems and I wonder why but then it is not up to me, is it? It is frightening as I got news of someone passing from cancer. The family did nothing to help her at all. They just let her go. It was liver cancer and it is very sad, as there are many remedies.

My Precious has been gone for over 6 weeks now and I guess she is gone, and this saddens me greatly. I so hope she did not suffer.

My landlord is back and she lost her cat too. I saw tears in her eyes today when she thought of dear sweet Muhanin and Precious. Two of the sweetest cats on this earth. How could someone be so cruel?

I try to be happy and concentrate on Ramadan and prepare. Today I got some money so I went and did lots of shopping, for things I can eat on Ramadan. I stocked my cabinets and freezer with many things, so I feel blessed. One woman gave me the money to buy food. It was nice to see someone who cares.

As we prepare for Ramadan, it is more than just food, and visiting it is prayers and quran and charity. It is alot more than just being good. It is about my lord and what he wants.

Sometimes, I just don't feel worthy of his love and then sometimes I feel so useless. But everytime, Allah smiles down on me and ask me for more.

I think I am about out of giving more Lord,please help me to be patient.

Sara

 

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