doesn't everyone start off their very first blog that way??? So cliche....

Date:   5/15/2009 9:16:47 AM ( 15 y ago)

so anyway I am 20 and I think that it is time to turn my life around. I mean that it's time to change my life forever. You see up untill now i have just been coasting through life getting by on my "good looks" and "charm"(I mean I was just naturally smart and I'm a funny chick), but now Im ready to step my game up. After a year of treading water and taking bogus classes in college, I have decided to study engineering. I want to join the air force, you see, and I figure that I can be an engineer in there and Ill be happy. So this summer I am taking a full load of classes and a working full time. Everyone is like you cant do it cause its to much. I know I can do it and do it well because I do what ever the hell I want. If I really want it, It will come to past. I start school monday. I can't wait. Its like I see the light at the end of the tunnel and im sprinting for it!!!!

Now that the school and career issue has been settled, there is a more pressing issue at hand. My body. My body is a mess of fat, fatigue, dry skin, skin infections, and high blood sugar. I havent been diagnosed with diabetes but i think that if I keep doing the things that im doing I will be and I dont want that. My doctor has given me until July the 15th to get my blood sugar down within normal range or she will diagnose me. Today is May 15, 2009 and today I start my water fast. When I was a young teenager I felt that God was calling me to fast. I didn't know what for so I didnt do it. I tried a couple of times but I didnt try like I wanted to fast. It was half heartedly. If I would have fasted then I probably would not be going through what Im going through now.

Today I started the fast at 8a.m. and the fast will end when my hunger returns. This will be a water fast. my objectives are to get a closer relationship with God, to break my addiction to sugar, to lower my blood sugar, and to be smaller than I ever have been before. I hit 100 pounds when I was in the second grade so from that point on i have just been gaining weight. I am 5'4" so I am shooting for somewhere between 110-120. I currently weigh 255. So I have to lose 145-135 pounds. I can do it. I will post daily if i can with my weight and my fast and things going on in my life. Wish me luck and pray for me.

 

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