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Day 1 of Extreme Goddess Makeover
I confront my food addiction. Day 1 of Extreme Goddess Makeover.
Date: 5/7/2006 1:06:45 PM ( 18 y ) ... viewed 4112 times For me, food is a drug. Cooked food is a bad, short high. I pursue it like a junkie. And like a junkie, I can't even look at myself in the mirror after a "fix". I am an addict.
Today marks my permanent confrontation of this addiction, and my total surrender to my Higher Self to let go and let Mother Nature and the Goddess heal my wounded heart, mind and body. It is time. I am ready.
As a result of this addiction to cooked foods, I am sure that I am host to considerable and long-established candida, yeast and parasite colonies. Although I know better, I have been their servant, and when they holler "feed us", I am their slave.
I am severely overweight, and need more than a band-aid approach. The scale today reads 213 pounds. I am nearly 90 pounds overweight.
I hover on the outskirts of the raw food community, but feel ashamed to show up at events because I am so overweight, bloated and unwell. I am hypocritical and dishonest with myself. I do not practice what I preach. I am a fraud, as I KNOW that the living foods path is the ONLY one that supports me fully, both in body, mind and spirit, and yet I keep indulging myself and blaming external stresses, people and situations that trigger my need to get a quick carb fix. I know this is self-destructive, causing a negative downward spiral into lethargy, negativity and depression---that wants more quick fixes to remain numb.
Today marks my emancipation into Freedom of Mind and Body. I am PROMISING myself to remain committed to a LONG TERM JUICE FAST (nutritional fasting, adding superfoods, herbs and gallbladder/liver cleanses) to REAWAKEN my own goddess nature ..... and to remember who I am, a being of LIGHT here to SERVE EARTH and her peoples.
Because I have a pattern of raw food-junk food, I am perhaps a bit healthier than the average SAD eater. My inspiration is observing HOW SICK PEOPLE LOOK .... especially people middle aged and older, who are beginning to settle into their "disease of choice". I must break this cycle in my own life, and share this journey with others who desperately need to know that our bodies are miraculous, and that our dear Mother Nature can heal us of virtually any illness of body, and Spirit can heal us of any illness of mind and heart, if we seek it with a sincere willingness to let go.
I am willing. I surrender. Goddess, give me strength.
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