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Day 2
... again ...
Date: 4/13/2006 11:58:00 PM ( 18 y ) ... viewed 1769 times Okay people, I had to start over. I don't know what to say to justify this... Third time's a charm? Third time since I started this blog... I suppose no matter how many times I've fallen down in the last three months, that doesn't mean I can't see this through to the end this time. I just feel like so pathetic! Urgh. So, I cheated on Monday, and it was totally unnecessary. In the morning, I was just thinking that it was really getting easier on day 4, and that I was going to be able to stick with it. It's always when I start not feeling really gross from the last cheat, then I cheat again! So frustrating. I hope at the least this is an inspiration to others to not be equally pathetic...
My question is, given that I know that I will feel awful after I eat, why do I? I don't even really enjoy the food. :( I might enjoy the first three bites, but then it's downhill from there. I want to get to my goal, start eating healthy, and enjoy every bite, first to last, and feel good afterwards as well. Right now it just seems like I have such a long journey ahead of me, and the time I'm going to have to put in seems overwhelming. The truth is though, that while fasting does not give me a big high, at least I don't have to suffer through the terrible low that I experience every time after I cheat, so it's really the best I can do right now. I am again, starting to feel less awful than I did on day 1, and that's good, but it's not an excuse to screw it up again.
I'm no happy with how my legs are now, my legs and my butt; always my biggest area of concern. So, I made it through measly day 2 with a little bit of challenge in the morning. On to day 3. Weekends are usually easier because my boyfriend is with me, and that would get me to day 5.
Intermediate goal, make it through tomorrow and my nemisis, the friday work brunch, the weekend, and then next week. That would get me to an amazing day 12. :) I can do it. Remember, when things are tough, just do NOTHING AT ALL. Stay put, don't eat. That's all.
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