Lucid Do Over? by munificent Blog entry

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by munificent

Lucid Do Over?

Seeing Judy, who passed a decade ago, and my son as a baby again! A replay of past reality- lucid dreaming?

Date: 12/28/2005 6:04:54 PM ( 19 y ) ... viewed 2256 times

Last night I attended a workshop on the Archetypes- Orphan, Warrior, Innocent, Caregiver- 4 months, 16 meetings later - Last night we integrated the four as the Soul work of our human. Life purpose, or even more, a 4 legged structure that withstands the wisp of the will or the hurricane of emotions.

I felt movement in the heart center as if a space had been created and I really began to understand how powerful the work is..and there was actually an emptiness of letting go of shard in that space. Many felt pain, and there were many tears inside much joy.

Kronos has been working on my energetics and has been sharing insights that he considers helpful on the journey to God consciousness which is different than Christ consciousness. Christ can fit inside the More Universal God, and God certainly has an aspect in Christ consciousness but I'm gleaning lesser than the overall Universal of God.

After embodying those aspects of the Archetypical me, I went to bed and dreamed of a time (now time) that a dear friend of mine, Judy, came to visit my husband (her old,old friend) and my baby son. Before I go on, Judy passed several years back from conditions surrounded by drug use- speed - she died in her 50's, was found on her garage floor collapsed alone several days gone - no one knew what happened.
I had not seen her for many years before her death, so this dream was kinda unusual- it was lucid we were both there I was in my early 20's, she in her late 20's- My son 18 months old.

Now the remembering/lucid dream:

Judy came into my son's bedroom he was in his crib- at his naptime..but he was not asleep. He was bouncing, as he did, around while hanging on to the front crib railing. Judy spoke to him, and he smiled, and jumped faster. It just so happened my son had started to get enough momentum bouncing that he could do poll vault like manuevar over the railing of the crib and land smack on the hardwood floor! Bammm- 31/2 feet, full ass flight, over the crib railing- I am laughing now as I think of it. Now one might think after one or two crash landings the pain might discourage an 18 month old baby from vaulting over the crib railings? In this case, one would be wrong.

I was explaining the dilemma to Judy as she baby talked with my son-with him jumping faster at each interchange..smiling and happy! Judy had 2 daughters several years older than mine. I looked to her for advice- she had never had experienced this "vaulting behavior" in her girls.

As anyone knows who reads cold water blog I body surf and open water swim. Our whole family surfed in one form or another so Judy suggested I put one of the fully inflated heavy canvas rafts on the floor below the crib. It would break his fall.

I hauled the raft out of the car and placed it halfway under the crib on the hardwood floor. My son did not disappoint! He vaulted the crib railing. He bounced off the raft while the impetus of contact slid the raft our from under him> On the second bounce he landed on the hardwood floor. The visuals was humorous ! But as a parent and a first time young parent I was tasked with protected this aerial athlete.

I recouped him, placed him back in his crib..and Judy and I left the room wondering if he would go down for his nap. Judy couldn't believe his persistence in the face of daring do and physical pain (?).

We shut his door and walked out to the living room, waiting for whatever was next. Then the dream ended I was in bed and my 3rd eye was dark..with some light patterns but no Judy or baby.

Before last night I hadn't seen Judy in over 20 years, heck, she transited over 8 years ago-maybe ten...It was nice seeing her freshness before the bad days that followed and it was wonderful being with both Judy and Baby again- I'm thinking there something new here- or I am newly "seeing". N

Now all I have is the enjoyment of experiencing them both as they were and as they are somewhere ...I'm wondering if these dreams are the pipe way to change outcome. Perhaps Judy could be on this plane still, Perhaps my son and Judy have a relationship that I was privy to reexperience with them or maybe as a connection to through them. I'll have to e-mail him and see if he's thought of her lately.

I'll pay more attention next time. It was good to see you your old self Judy. I love you! Come again anytime!

~9th~