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The End of Mercury Retrograde
This is a moment of decision. How do I ride the waves
of this week and come up with the results I would like to have by next Monday?
Date: 4/12/2005 7:43:41 AM ( 19 y ) ... viewed 1781 times It is 4:37 AM Tuesday morning,
April 12 and this is a moment of decision.
Yesterday was the end of Mercury Retrograde.
Mercury Retrograde is a astrological phenomena
that occurs about every ten weeks,
and lasts for about three weeks.
It is an incredible time for many sensitive people.
Others seem to be oblivious to it.
Still others are effected by it, but haven’t a clue
why they are feeling extra edgy, extra PMS,
extra ready to bite the head off
of anyone who gets too close.
Lots of souls in bodies decide
to leave during Mercury
Retrograde.
This time it was John Paul.
Maybe you know someone who left
as well.
The worlds are a little closer during this time
of Mercury Retrograde.
It is easier to shift from one world to another.
It is a time of looking back.
It is a time of holding still,
of decluttering.
A time for making progress
with emotional clearing of old stuff.
It is not a time for closing deals.
It is not a time for starting new things.
It is not a time for signing contracts
because much of what you do in this way
during this time will have to be redone.
It is a time when some part of us
is asking us to slow down and if we do not
you may need to call the plumber
with backed up lines.
Mercury Retrograde for me generally ends
with a bang,
a squeeze play,
that can turn into an epiphany of
intense personal growth
if I am paying attention.
I am still at the home of
Serina. Yesterday was the last day
of Mercury Retrograde.
I was feeling very tired
from the weekend.
I had indecision about going home
and shifting locations.
I knew this was the time for culling
all the good from my 40th High School Reunion
that occurred Saturday and Sunday.
ReUnioin Blogs:
Comparing Myself to Others
http://curezone.com/blogs/m.asp?f=92&i=120
Why Go to a High School Reunion?
http://curezone.com/blogs/m.asp?f=92&i=124
High School ReUnion
http://curezone.com/blogs/m.asp?f=92&i=123
Cupid and the Sprite are Out:
http://curezone.com/blogs/m.asp?f=92&i=121
Safe and Sound:
http://curezone.com/blogs/m.asp?f=92&i=122
I knew from experience that if I went
home on Monday, I would have been sucked
up into a ton of other mental processes.
I knew that if I went home to settle down again
and get the good from my 40th High School
ReUnion would have been near impossible.
I had to hold my ground if I wanted
to reap the good from the ReUnion.
I had to hold my ground if I wanted
to feel the feelings and take time to
write my life together.
I should be sleeping right now,
but I am writing. It is now 4:52 AM
and thank God the house is quiet
because everyone else is
sleeping.
I am sitting in the dining room
of this very significant home where
I have had massive and major growth
spurts, and where there are also
ghosts of memories.
In the room I am staying there is a mirror.
I once watched the naked body of
xxx in this mirror.
I once watched both our naked bodies
in this mirror as we embraced and celebrated
the sweetness of life fully lived.
In the front of the house,
there use to be a red fence
made of wood thick enough
to sit on.
Thank God they tore that fence
down.
That was the fence where I sat with
xxx-2 the morning after one of the most
glorious experiences in my life,
an experience that
exploded into the one of the most
beautiful love affairs in my life.
One of the greatest Soul experiences
of this entire incarnation was finally
getting free of xxx-2.
I obsessed over her for no less than 1 1/2 years.
Today we are friends, and through grace,
I was able to take back my power,
but that is another story.
In fact, she called twice yesterday.
She is working very hard to put together
a land deal for the Jensen property.
We are two weeks or less from Passover.
Last Passover I reconnected with xxx in the
most amazing way after 500 “No’s”
over nine months
and then 24 hours of “Yes’s” that
are still with me.
There simply was no shift
in how beautiful it was to be with her
and that is dangerous.
We are both capable of the most
profound love--body, mind, Soul
in any given moment, and now
we are not talking on purpose.
Ouch, but enough of that.
So this is the challenge:
I was not in a space to write
on Monday.
Some of the main players
in my life--the Big Boys--
are all getting together about
20 minutes from here this weekend.
It is the weekend of the MEGA
Book Marketing University.
Mark Victor Hansen,
1/2 of Mr. Chicken Soup for the Soul
will be for the first time
that I recall with the other half
of the Chicken Soup--Jack Canfield.
Jack and I go back more than 20 years.
Not that is quite a Soup mix.
I knew both these men before
the Chicken in the Chicken Soup
was even an egg.
http://www.megabookmarketing.com/
On top of this, Mark has called together
some of his top lollipop kings and queens
of the publishing industry. This is a bit
too yummy for me not to want to take a good
long suck of the energy.
Rick Frishman is going to be there,
Rick is the man who was Mark’s publicist for
The Chicken.
--Book Expo America-- in Los Angeles 2003.
I made it a priority of the three-
day publisher’s event to be his photographer
for one of his happenings.
The main thing I got from that was
$200.00 plus a priceless quote:
“Leslie Goldman is the best photographer
on the planet,” Rick Frishman--
Chicken Soup for the Soul publicist,
80 million sold.
Peter Vegso, the head of HCI,
the company that produces
“Chicken Soup for the Soul”
is also going to be there.
Peter is a very sweet man.
He has been open to publishing
my work for more than ten years.
I am the one who has not come through
by finishing something and sending it to him.
This time--I am close--real close to letting
go of The Seven Love Cures.
I am clear that the words are winners
and that I am ready to license them as greeting
cards, books, posters, frame able art, whatever.
http://www.lesliegoldman.com/Worlds_Greatest_Lovers/id41.htm
The MEGA Event--coming on the heals
of the incredible healing of last week at the ReUnion
feels like it would give me a surge of energy
to propel me over the top--
finally.
I need to believe that.
Mark is the greatest master motivation
I know.
He actually had me convinced
I could become a millionaire during
our last phase together, during
the One Minute Millionaire coming out party
phase of his work.
That was before my two hip revisions.
Now I am back on more solid hips.
I could be more prepared to taut The Seven Love Cures.
I did not bring all my paperwork with me
from home on that project,
but I do have copies, and likely
more than I need.
The event starts Friday morning.
After my experience of practically
missing my ReUnion because of
exhaustion, it does seem a good use
of energy to go home and then come back
on by Thursday night.
The event costs $700.00.
It is not like I have the money,
but I am looking at bills I owe
and how to get that money.
I feel pressure.
I am definitely not into laying down
$700.00 and then not showing
up energetically because I am too tired.
That's what happened Saturday night
at the 40th Reunion.
And then, there are these extremely
sweet reflections and epiphanies
that I want to record about the Reunion
before I turn my attenion on the MEGA event.
I have about four hours of writing,
at least on the ReUnion.
Feels good to write this out.
I am tired now,
and going back to bed.
I will get up fresh in the morning,
while Serina is out and write,
and then I will trust.
Your Enchanted Gardener
Leslie
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