Here is my story, that I'm normally reluctant to tell.
Obsessive behavior toward something that shouldn't matter, but it does to me.
Date: 9/15/2011 8:37:49 PM ( 27 mon ) ... viewed 2569 times
Hello out there! Anyone hear me? Well, I am on here for a release of what I normally am so quick to hide. I have a lot of oddities that even I find strange. Obsessing over some weird things that should not matter. I am 24 years old. I live in New England. I spent my life early on as outgoing, trying too hard to be liked and so on, like so many others. But now that I've become an adult I don't find much need for that. But let me cut right to the chase. I am obsessed with zodiacs. More so, my own, Virgo. I have pushed people away because they were not a Virgo. Yet, when I have found Virgos it goes nowhere, slowly. I know this sounds entirely crazy, but I can't get past it. There have been times in life where I have obsessed over other signs, when I happened to date them, but in the back of my mind, I have it set that if I am with a Virgo, they will be the same as me on all the basics. This has rang true in the past, very true, other than how fast a relationship gets built. It is very discouraging when I find just who I want, and they don't feel the same. I'm terrified of rejection, though I would never admit to that in the real world. I just don't know how to kick this irrational obsession with dating and marrying a Virgo man. It feels almost like a desperation, though I'm exaggerating a bit there. I mean, I could very easily have OCD and not even know I do. But to have such an obsession makes me feel strange. And people I have told this to call me eccentric. Many eccentricities and complexes inside my mind. :-| I'm just not sure. I might think of seeing a doctor. Because even if my dream comes true, there shouldn't be my obsession putting it in action. It should be a natural thing. I don't know. I think I should see a doctor ultimately. Anyone want to talk about this? I'm fairly shy, but I can hold a conversation. Or maybe if there is other Virgo's out there who experience the same thoughts now and again, we could swap notes, so to speak. If you read this, then thank you for reading.
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