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Goodbye Curezone 18 y
When you get the choice to sit it out or dance...
Dance.
I have chosen to live a new course. My healing journey goes into all places that require solitude and peace.
Thank you, Curezone, for educating me on so much.
Thank you to the wonderful BEings that have contributed. Thank you for taking the time to read my blog, my posts, and for being so selfless and loving to talk to me, comment, offer opinions and friendship and help.
I desire to live a life free of labels. I desire to live in freedom, and most of all, in peace.
I wish you ALL love, light, and happiness, serenity, on your journeys. Always believe in yourselves, you are an Al ... read more Ouch 18 y
Odwalla!! Micronutrient drink
My tummy hurts. :(
And it’s like the ocean under the moooooooooon
Well that’s the same as the emotion -that I get from you!!-
YOU’VE GOT the kind of lovin’ that could be so smooooooth
Give me your heart ~~ visit the page California Dreaming :( 18 y
lines lines lines...
I’m sitting here after drinking an incredibly nutritious smoothie, thinking, ”Don’t throw up. DON’T go into that bathroom and stick your fingers down your throat. You drank that to help yourself, NOT to hurt yourself.”
The past couple of days have been a challenge. Lots of personal growth, even more pain to go with it. But not the dull ache anymore. It’s been sharp.. sharp ripping sensations.
I miss California.
This vacation’s useless, these white pills aren’t kind - I’ve given a lot of thought on this 13 hour drive. I miss the grinded concrete where we sat past 8 or 9
and slowly ... read more Here with me 18 y
Rain
I love jumping out the window from my study room at night when everyone’s sleeping. It’s so much fun, I feel like a teenager. I remember my friends who used to sneak out late at night, too, where we’d all meet, how much fun we had...
Then when I became ill, it was just me walking the dark streets to listen to the guitar player on the side of Albertson’s.
It was the picture that set me off. Of a figure leaning protectively, lovingly over his stunningly beautiful daughter. I felt such a pang of jealousy, I immediately cast away the image from my eyes, but it had etched a memory in my m ... read more Who likes stories? 18 y
I wanna take the pill that people take...
”You’re CRAZY!” He yelled, slamming the door to his vehicle. ”You’re a f***ing lunatic.”
She reeled at the response, glaring into his eyes, exuding hate, though all she really wanted to do was throw her arms around him and proclaim her love for him.
”Just f***ing go. GET OUT OF HERE. Call your mother, tell her what you’re doing, bitch. Crazy whore.” With that, he whipped out his cell phone and began jabbing at the keys. He trembled with a rage she had yet to experience.
Her spirits sunk, and slowly she turned and made her way for the door. She could hear his footsteps behind her’s, quic ... read more FINALLY My story! - It's done! 18 y
Aloha Raw!
I posted my story on my Myspace - it’s my journey of health so far.
http://www.myspace.com/aloharaw
I hope freeweblayout.net lets me keep the coding! I twisted it to my preference without their consent... visit the page Short talk with myself 18 y
I choose to grow mentally, physically and Spiritually. I choose freedom from my emotions, and I choose to be self-sustained and to love myself, and allow others to love me.
I cried inwardly, but I didn’t show it.
The Enchanted Gardener says if you don’t cry on the outside, the tears run on the inside.
Yesterday I did so well with my eating - I was so happy. I took care of myself, I chose to do more juicing than eating. I ate only raw cacao, grapefruit, and a little salad.
But today.. I was so sad.. I ate. I ate a lot. And now, I feel like a failure.
But I choose to move forward from this. I choose to continue growing, to let go of my fears and my doubts, and to love myself.
visit the page Honesty is a hard attribute to find 18 y
I'll master this art form someday.
I think it’s.. when people get to a point where they’re fatigued and frustrated from the constant battle with themselves. I’ve been told when people reach a level or consistency of pain they’re uncomfortable with is when change occurs. I believe emotionally you can reach that point, too.
I’d like to continue hiding in my corner and doing that which silences my many emotions, but - it’s not getting me anywhere.
I choose to come out from my corner now. visit the page Poem 18 y
Dr. Isabelle Moser -is super awesome-.
Tis a gift to be simple
Tis a gift to be free,
Tis a gift to come down
Where we ought to be.
And when we find ourselves
In a place just right,
It will be in the valley
Of love and delight.
Old Shaker Hymn
Favorite of Dr. Isabelle Moser visit the page Rated .. better 18 y
Just breathe.
**Edit** Because the anger isn’t worth it - but health is.
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There is no one to blame, not even myself. As angry as I am, I’m just creating a victim loop. This is my reality and my life, I manifest what comes into it. I choose NOT to be a victim anymore, I choose to be empowered.
I AM empowered. I am a Goddess..
[My intestines really, really hurt right now].
As Lapis said to do, I am -now- studying how I feel in a detatched manner.
I am okay.
I want to cry.
The first animal that comes to my mind is the Wolf.
I still want to cry.
I still want to c ... read more The Hiiiiiilllls are aliiive.. 18 y
I like the goat play in that movie.
Here I am, chew - chew - chewing my 1/2 cup of raw cacao hoping for a flush.
I thanked it - ”Thank you for blessing me..”
I thank all of my food now before or when I eat it.
It was advised that I do that to my water, too.. and MMN, it’s delicious!!
Thank you for the comments, everyone http://www.RawLifeline.com ..?
~Papillon
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Thanks to everyone who is reading this!! I LOVE YOU!! [and even those who aren't, of course!]
**First off, I wrote back to those who gave me comments on the right-hand side of this page. Thank you all so much!!**
The words are all jumbled in my head. I had an idea of how I was going to lay this out, but it tumbled and crashed.
My train of thought de-railed. [Copywrite Ika 2004].
I guess I’ll just put out my raw emotions. It’s embarrassing for me to admit them, but I know I have before - I just don’t wish to face them.
I emotionally eat. It’s a habit I’ve had for years. I’ve struggled with ’anorexia, bulimia,’ and compulsive eating. Are they really those dis-eases? Or ju ... read more |