It’s been over a year and things have gone down hill. Mostly the issue is self loathing. But I am doing better and have been trying to take better care of myself. Weight is slowly coming off but after a year of gaining weight every little that comes off isn’t as rewarding. How many times am I going to indulge in this self loathing behavior? People say I look sad and they are right. Though I have found someone who cares about unconditionally it isn’t enough for me. I haven’t figured out what makes me happy. Not understanding why I am sad has made simple tasks almost impossible. ...   read more