I have cancer from smoking. I’m 42 years old I smoked for twenty years. I don’t know how it happened. I was a health nut in my mind and at heart. I ran extensively ate vegetarian for fifteen years. But I have an addiction that took over my life and I kept it a secret from everyone because I was so ashamed I was doing it. I wanted to stop and I thought everyday for 12 years this was the day I would finally stop. Now I am very sick and my secret has come very closing to killing me. It hadn’t yet but I am in deaths door. I do not believe in traditional medicine. I am alone scared and afraid ...   read more