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good morning 10 y
i'd rather die on my feet than live on my knees
so its 8:00am and everyone is still asleep i got up brushed my teeth wash my face and decided that i would start my water fast today at 10:00am. eating that big breakfast this morning i just thought to myself for a whole month i wont be eating anything. so i sat there and very slowly took small bites just really tasting all the flavors it held. thinking about what my life will be after the fast will i lose all of this weight and go back to my old ways. that would be a waste of time and i would be a fool. will i lose all my muscle and have loose skin. all these things run through my mind. t ... read more first post 10 y
a struggling teenage girl who WILL over come the hard times that she is facing.
i have always kept notebooks were i would write all the stuff i felt or was going through. but i never let anyone see them. so this would be the first time sharing to anyone what im going through. im 16 in high school weighing 268. damn how could i have let this happen. i think back to weighing in the high 100’s i would kill just to get out of the 200’s. it’s hard for a big person like be to have any real fun or walk in a room without being looked at. every time i try i fail. i have caught myself looking at liposuction once. i just need to buck down and lose it because no one is going to ... read more |