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the weekend - back at square one 12 y
weekend is a killer
So I had that exam on Saturday - which took me half a day. At some point in between, there was an hour break between the written part and the oral part, so i just ran out to the first fast food stand and stuff myself with food.
I got back home, and surely enought - had ANOTHER lunch with my husband. And in the evening, he took me out - so i wasn’t exactly restticting myself either. Drank wine too. no movement. nothing.
Sunday was bad too - it was raining and i just ventured to the park for a little walk, but that’s it. ate like a pig.
i can’t explain it. I feel horrible. I look it too. ... read more day 4 - super lazy day 12 y
day 4. relatively calm. no major breakthroughs.
I don’t know what it is, whether the effects of a very active day yesteday, but i slept like a baby under some serious sedatives. i guess the worst of the detox is over.
thanks to my Brazil Butt Lift workout (what a name,really), every single muscle around that area i never knew i had hurts. so I spend the day being not very active and prepping for the exam tomorrow (having to get up at 6:30 am on a saturday sucks).
I also ate things i am not to eat if I want to lose 30 kilos - like a very nice italian sausage my husband brought from Florence. delish. but FAT!.. the spices in it made me ... read more day three - more of the same, but more of exercise too 12 y
third day. 2 Lbs less. more active.
Ok, quick facts - weigh myself this morning. it was 89.2 kilos (196.2 lbs) - roughly 2Lbs down since day one. I know its all water weight by now, but at least it moved in the right direction.
Night was horrible: woke up several times, heart racing, thirsty. typical detox things.
Got myself (despite huge fatigue) out to the park, walk, stretched - 40 minutes.
Lunch - huge salad - all fresh, with some shrimps, no dressing. After all, the goal is not to lose muscle weight, so i need protein (plus, i was really starving).
Normal work day after all. Black tea. Couldnt help myself, and ate t ... read more interesting observations - the next day 12 y
nrxt day, first detox symthoms. Not fun
As much as I was full of determination and contempt for myself yesterday, as lazy and moody I was today.
Before going to sleep I could’ve gone for a walk, but I didnt. I was hungry. Snapped at my husband. Had a cup of hot water with lemon and honey before going bed. I decided to sleep on the couch, and it was a wise decision - i was tossing and turning all night long, with sweats and nightmares. I attributed this to the first detox symthoms.
This morning, the skin on my face was and is horrible, dry and flaky at the corners of my mouth, and on my forehead (usually i have a pretty good n ... read more Its time. 12 y
first comes the decision, then comes the action. or so I hope.
Well, well. Today I have officially hit the new high - 90 kilos (198 Lbs). This comes right after a friend’s visit, who hasn’t seen me for about 10 years (the years in which I increased steadily by about 25 kilos). We took pictures and i clearly saw that she didn’t change a bit, and I couldn’t really connect the fat woman i saw on the picture to myself. We are both 37 now.
The pictures made me depressed and after she left, i poured myself a chardonnay and looked at the old pictures of us - where i was stunning at 130 Lbs (I am 6 feet tall). This morning I felt horrible. More so, because m ... read more |